Scene: After the wedding
Jase
You should have just called and asked your sister and her fiancé for directions.
Sophie
We’re still talking about this. Come on. They were following us, Jase. They didn’t know where they were going anymore than we did. Can we just drop it?
Jase
No! I’m pissed. You got us lost.
Sophie
For the last time, I did not get us lost. Did you know the way? No! So we were both lost.
Jase
But you wouldn’t call for directions.
Sophie
We got here alright didn’t we? Why did you hang up when I answered the phone last night? We both left the concert at the same time. I came home, and then you called. What did you want and why did you hang up when I answered?
Jase
What are you talking about? I didn’t call you.
Sophie
Yes you did, it said your family’s name on the caller ID.
Jase
It was probably my mom calling to find out where I was.
Sophie
Why would she call me? She didn’t even know we were together. You had already dropped me off at home and then you went home to change after the rehearsal dinner.
Jase
Good point.
Sophie
Then if it wasn’t you I wonder who else in your household would have wanted to call me. Oooh I bet it was Tucker. I wonder what Tucker wanted to talk about. Too bad I didn’t get to talk to him. Maybe no one was on the phone because I didn’t answer in time. (In a mocking tone.)
Jase
Tucker didn’t call you! I…
Sophie
I know. You called me. Maybe you just didn’t know what to say anymore when I answered.
Jase
Can we go home now?
Sophie
But there is still the dinner.
Jase
You never told me about the dinner.
Sophie
Yes I did! I called and asked whether you wanted chicken or beef. You said chicken. My cousin paid for a meal for you as a thank you for playing at her wedding. You have to stay and eat.
Jase
I never told my mom I was going to stay this long.
Sophie
It’s ok. I can call her.
(Takes her phone out and starts dialing.)
I can let her know that you forgot to tell her about the dinner. She’ll understand.
Jase
No!
(Pulls the phone out of her hand.)
Would you just stop it? I’m leaving. Are you coming with me?
Sophie
Yes!
Jase
Ok then. (pause) I’m sorry, I just felt uncomfortable at the wedding. I didn’t know anyone. On the drive back you and I can just talk without everyone else around.
Sophie
I get it. I’ve been meaning to ask you, what’s the deal with homecoming?
Jase
What about homecoming?
Sophie
Do you want to go with me? Are we going together?
Jase
I have to ask my parents. I’ll get back to you about that later.
Sophie
You’ve got to be kidding me. Why would you have to ask your parents? I want an answer. It’s very simple, yes or no.
Jase
Don’t you think we’ve been spending too much time together? The rehearsal, the rehearsal dinner, the dance, the wedding, the car rides! It’s been like eighteen of the last thirty-six hours. That’s half of the last thirty-six hours of my life!
Sophie
I know it’s been a lot, but we won’t be spending that much time together at school.
Jase
It’s just you constantly pressure me.
Sophie
To do what?
Jase
The dinner and just everything. Pressure, pressure, pressure!
Sophie
That’s a cheap excuse. I was just trying to be nice. I was going to talk to your mom so you could stay.
Jase
I didn’t want to. I just think you get the wrong idea of what we are. I don’t want to lead…
(Stops himself as he clearly did not mean this.)
Sophie
What are we then?
(Sophie goes into defensive mode.)
You assume a lot, don’t you? I have a lot of guy friends, don’t I?
Jase
Yes you do.
(In an almost whisper.)
Sophie
You thought you were ever more than that? Well you’re not. I was asking you to homecoming as my friend. Just a friend.
Jase
Sophie, I’m sorry.
Sophie
I’m leaving. I don’t need a ride home. I don’t want to talk anymore.
Jase
Sophie wait!
Sophie
What, Jase?
Jase
You will talk to me at school, right?
Sophie
Yeah Jase, I’ll talk to you.
Jase
(Sings – “Another Way to Make a Mistake”)
Another day another way to make a mistake.
To say what I don’t mean.
What she sees is beyond me.
I have no clue who I’m trying to be.
I should quit this mess because I can’t keep this up.
Constantly trapped in my self-sabotaging ways.
I hate myself even being near her.
She looks better with him anyways.
I guess that leaves no room for me.
Scene: Sophie and Jase talking at school
Jase
I’m going to play bass guitar in the pit for the public school’s musical. Are you going to come watch me?
Sophie
How am I supposed to watch? You’ll be in the pit.
Jase
Yeah, but I’ll wave to you. All throughout the show I’ll be waving, so you better be watching. I also have to hold up a fish on a stick for some production number. The fish will also be waving to you.
Sophie
Shouldn’t I be watching the actors?
Jase
Well who is more important – the actors or me?
Sophie
How can you be in the pit for the public school? You don’t go there.
Jase
I switched over there for the band program. There’s actually more than one person per instrument. It’s amazing. You should transfer over there for choir. You’re too talented to stay here.
Sophie
I’d have to wait until next semester.
Jase
I can arrange things for you. I’ll talk to the choir director and get you an audition.
Sophie
What if I don’t get in?
Jase
You’ll get in, trust me. Band is at the same time as choir, so I can drive you back and forth.
Sophie
You make everything so much better.
Scene: Jase and Delilah’s introduction – at musical rehearsal
Delilah
You’re new here aren’t you?
Jase
How could you tell?
Delilah
You had this “oh shit, I don’t know anyone” look.
Jase
Oh
Delilah
Well, I’m Delilah.
Jase
I’m Jase. I go to the Catholic school.
Delilah
So are you good in bed then?
Jase
Excuse me?
Delilah
I heard Catholics are good in bed.
Jase
I’ve never heard that before. Do you know if the soda machines are on out in the hall?
Delilah
They’re not, but you can have some of my lemonade.
Jase
Thanks, that’s very nice of you.
(Takes a sip and nearly spits the “lemonade” out.)
This isn’t…
Delilah
Yes it is. It just has other ingredients.
Jase
Like what?
Delilah
Vodka. Always a good choice.
Jase
Don’t you worry about getting caught?
Delilah
Not really. The teachers would probably rather pretend to not know. If I don’t supply the alcohol, than who will? The class depends on me. Tell me about yourself.
Jase
I have a band with my brothers.
Delilah
Oooh a rockstar in the making.
Jase
Yeah, not quite. Sometimes we play gigs at restaurants on the weekends.
Delilah
I bet you have so many groupies.
Jase
Why is that?
Delilah
Because you’re pretty hott. Do you have a girlfriend?
Jase
Not in so many words. I don’t know what she is.
Delilah
What’s her name?
Jase
Sophie.
Delilah
How do you know her?
Jase
She asked my brother to homecoming. Then we started talking, and became whatever we are now.
Delilah
She’s using you.
Jase
You don’t even know her. Why would you say that?
Delilah
You met her because she likes your brother. If you talk to her it gets her closer to him. Does she come over to your house?
Jase
Sometimes.
Delilah
Is he always there?
Jase
He does live there.
Delilah
How far have you gone with her?
Jase
She’s not like that. She’s a few years younger than me.
Delilah
Well then what fun is that?
Jase
We talk. She gets me.
Delilah
It’s all just a game to her. You’ll realize that when she’s gone, and then you can sit and think about all the time you wasted.
Jase
Sometimes I wonder if that’s what is going on.
Delilah
Sometimes I wonder what people sleep in.
Jase
You really have a one track mind don’t you? Absolutely no sensor whatsoever.
Delilah
You’d be lying if you said you didn’t wonder what innocent little Sophie wore to bed.
Jase
Beyond the point.
Delilah
So what do you wear?
Jase
Boxers.
Delilah
I like to sleep naked. Clothes are just so confining. I mean really, what’s their point anyways.
Jase
I could name a few reasons.
Delilah
I walk around my house completely naked at times. Great visual isn’t it?
Jase
You walk around like that when no-one is home. Right?
Delilah
No. I could care less who is home. Hell, I look good. Here, you know what? I’m going to give you my phone number. I like you, I think we could work something out.
Jase
Work what out?
Delilah
Give me a call and I guess you’ll find out.
(Jase takes the phone number and walks away.)
(Sings – “On a Saturday Night”)
Blending into the leather couch.
So rigid and cold.
Listening to the thoughts of someone else.
Can I try to make you smile today?
I could be your vision, be your muse.
Just to be in your world.
I would live through the songs you sing on a Saturday night.
Is this what you say to a guy who has it all?
Your light draws my mind.
I’d take the chance of falling.
You could be a mirror of me.
I could be your vision, be your muse.
Just to be in your world.
I would live through the songs you sing on a Saturday night.
Is this what you say to a guy who has it all?
Don’t you see how much you shine?
What I’d give for you to let me in.
Scene: Sophie’s house on Halloween
(Door bell rings)
Sophie
Time to hand out some candy to the kiddies.
(Opens door)
Seth
I believe we’ve met before. Would you care to join me in the dark world of the undead?
Sophie
Seth aren’t you too old to be trick or treating?
(Sets bowl down and sits down on couch)
Seth
No. Can’t you just feel my 17th century charm?
Sophie
I sense the failed charming attempts of the 17 years of your existence. Why are you still standing outside?
Seth
I’m not able to enter your house without an invitation.
Sophie
Are you serious? Seth you’re tan, and drinking a cream soda does not make you immortal.
Seth
(Enters the house)
Thanks for ruining my fun. I wanted to see my best friend. It’s not like we go to the same school. I don’t exactly see you all of the time. I figured we could watch a scary movie or something.
Sophie
Sure. Is there a reason you brought your guitar oh ancient vampiric one.
Seth
Well yes there is. I’m glad you asked. I made a mix cd for you, and included a new song I wrote called “Songs for November”.
Sophie
It’s October.
Seth
Well pretend it’s tomorrow. So I brought my guitar to sing it for you. You need the full effect before you hear the recording.
(Sings - “Songs for November” - Co-written by Joel Stepanek)
Just another verse for a chorus that I never got to write.
Another strum on a string and a voice in the night.
One more chance to make you see that the only notes I ever sang
were ones just to make you believe.
All my songs were for you if you would only open your heart to me.
These are your songs for November.
Bleeding heart stitched together.
Trying to find your place in life.
When you feel like everyone has left you.
Know that I am standing by to remind you of who you’re meant to be.
When the November cold is all you feel.
Yet a moment out of tune was all that I could give.
Trading off my awkward moments for a chance to really live.
So I’ll take your time in stride to sing a song by your bedside.
You’re in my my dreams and I won’t breathe until you see that.
These are your songs for November.
Bleeding heart stitched together.
Trying to find your place in life.
When you feel like everyone has left you.
Know that I am standing by to remind you of who you’re meant to be.
When the November cold is all you feel.
The shadow at your back and the music in your night.
I could be your harmony.
Just let me inside your inspiration.
I could be the key to your heart if you would only fall onto me.
Sophie
I love it! Hey, just curious, you have class with Jase right?
Seth
I don’t go out during hours of sunlight.
Sophie
Seth! Be serious!
Seth
Yes I have one class with him. Why?
Sophie
Do you think you could talk to him?
Seth
About what? It’s not like we’re friends.
Sophie
You could try to be his friend, and then kind of find out what he thinks about me.
Seth
Do you really still like him? I just don’t get what you see in him.
Sophie
Yes I still like him. That’s not even in question.
Seth
Ok, I’ll see what I can find out. I’m not happy about this though.
Sophie
You’re happy when I’m happy though, right?
Seth
I’m reluctantly answering yes. There are better guys out there than Jase.
Sophie
Like who?
Seth
Let’s just watch the movie. I bet you five dollars you scream once before the movie is over.
Sophie
You’re on.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Scene 6-7 (you know the drill on previous scenes)
Scene: Jase and Tucker talking - a few weeks have passed
(Sophie at this time is hidden to Tucker, but seen by the audience)
Tucker
I really want to ask Sophie to homecoming.
Jase
Then go for it.
Tucker
What if she doesn’t like me anymore? Then I’ll just make a fool out of myself.
Jase
She has asked you to homecoming before. I’m sure she’ll go.
Tucker
You really think so? Good! I wouldn’t want to take anyone else. I don’t know how to ask her.
Jase
Why don’t you go somewhere and think about it for a while, and then ask later today.
Tucker
Ok, I’ll do that. Thanks Jase. I don’t know what I’d do without you.
(Tucker leaves while Sophie approaches Jase)
Sophie
I cannot believe he is actually asking me to homecoming. What am I supposed to do? Say no?
Jase
Just avoid him. He’ll get the idea. Poor kid doesn’t realize his interest in you is a bit too late.
Sophie
I have a question for you though.
Jase
Oh now what would that be?
Sophie
My cousin is getting married. She asked me to sing for the wedding, but I need someone to accompany me on the piano. Would you be at all interested?
Jase
Does it mean I get to spend more time with you?
Sophie
Of course!
Jase
Then it is a definite yes.
Scene: Sophie and Jase at the rehearsal dinner for the wedding
Sophie
Well the rehearsal for the wedding went well.
Jase
Yeah, I guess.
Sophie
Hey what’s wrong? Is my family overwhelming? I know sometimes they can be.
Jase
No it’s fine. It would’ve been nice if you had told me prior to this that the dinner was going to be an hour away from the church.
Sophie
I didn’t know.
Jase
I’m going to add the music I learned for the wedding to my piano music collection. So when I’m a professional piano player someday I’ll have a binder of all the songs I know how to play. So what are we supposed to do now?
Sophie
We’re at a restaurant. We’re supposed to eat.
(Jase and Sophie go get food and sit down at a table)
Jase
Starving yourself again I see.
Sophie
No. Why would you say that?
Jase
I see you throw away half of your lunch at school. When we were rehearsing, I offered you my sandwich, and you wouldn’t eat it.
Sophie
Your sandwich was gross.
Jase
Why is that?
Sophie
I don’t like onions.
Jase
You could’ve taken them off.
Sophie
I don’t like tomatoes. It’s hard to get rid of tomatoes. I’m not a person who eats a lot. That’s just how I am.
Jase
Well you’re eating more tonight, and that’s final.
(Places more food on her plate)
Sophie
Fine, whatever.
Jase
At least it’s really warm outside. The lake is nice. Hey I think I just saw a shooting star!
Sophie
Really? Where did you see it?
Jase
I don’t think I saw one.
Sophie
But you just said…
Jase
I didn’t. It was probably just a glare off of a car window.
Sophie
Ever the pessimist. Are you going to the concert tonight?
Jase
I don’t know. Are we even going to make it back in time?
Sophie
We’re not that far from home.
Jase
I never told my mom there was a concert. She probably won’t let me go. How about you? Are you going to the concert?
Sophie
I don’t know. I’m getting pretty tired.
Jase
Do you hear the song playing in the background. Tucker can play this on his guitar. I can’t.
Sophie
Let’s not talk about Tucker tonight.
Jase
Why?
Sophie
Because I’m here with you.
Jase
I like that.
(Sophie at this time is hidden to Tucker, but seen by the audience)
Tucker
I really want to ask Sophie to homecoming.
Jase
Then go for it.
Tucker
What if she doesn’t like me anymore? Then I’ll just make a fool out of myself.
Jase
She has asked you to homecoming before. I’m sure she’ll go.
Tucker
You really think so? Good! I wouldn’t want to take anyone else. I don’t know how to ask her.
Jase
Why don’t you go somewhere and think about it for a while, and then ask later today.
Tucker
Ok, I’ll do that. Thanks Jase. I don’t know what I’d do without you.
(Tucker leaves while Sophie approaches Jase)
Sophie
I cannot believe he is actually asking me to homecoming. What am I supposed to do? Say no?
Jase
Just avoid him. He’ll get the idea. Poor kid doesn’t realize his interest in you is a bit too late.
Sophie
I have a question for you though.
Jase
Oh now what would that be?
Sophie
My cousin is getting married. She asked me to sing for the wedding, but I need someone to accompany me on the piano. Would you be at all interested?
Jase
Does it mean I get to spend more time with you?
Sophie
Of course!
Jase
Then it is a definite yes.
Scene: Sophie and Jase at the rehearsal dinner for the wedding
Sophie
Well the rehearsal for the wedding went well.
Jase
Yeah, I guess.
Sophie
Hey what’s wrong? Is my family overwhelming? I know sometimes they can be.
Jase
No it’s fine. It would’ve been nice if you had told me prior to this that the dinner was going to be an hour away from the church.
Sophie
I didn’t know.
Jase
I’m going to add the music I learned for the wedding to my piano music collection. So when I’m a professional piano player someday I’ll have a binder of all the songs I know how to play. So what are we supposed to do now?
Sophie
We’re at a restaurant. We’re supposed to eat.
(Jase and Sophie go get food and sit down at a table)
Jase
Starving yourself again I see.
Sophie
No. Why would you say that?
Jase
I see you throw away half of your lunch at school. When we were rehearsing, I offered you my sandwich, and you wouldn’t eat it.
Sophie
Your sandwich was gross.
Jase
Why is that?
Sophie
I don’t like onions.
Jase
You could’ve taken them off.
Sophie
I don’t like tomatoes. It’s hard to get rid of tomatoes. I’m not a person who eats a lot. That’s just how I am.
Jase
Well you’re eating more tonight, and that’s final.
(Places more food on her plate)
Sophie
Fine, whatever.
Jase
At least it’s really warm outside. The lake is nice. Hey I think I just saw a shooting star!
Sophie
Really? Where did you see it?
Jase
I don’t think I saw one.
Sophie
But you just said…
Jase
I didn’t. It was probably just a glare off of a car window.
Sophie
Ever the pessimist. Are you going to the concert tonight?
Jase
I don’t know. Are we even going to make it back in time?
Sophie
We’re not that far from home.
Jase
I never told my mom there was a concert. She probably won’t let me go. How about you? Are you going to the concert?
Sophie
I don’t know. I’m getting pretty tired.
Jase
Do you hear the song playing in the background. Tucker can play this on his guitar. I can’t.
Sophie
Let’s not talk about Tucker tonight.
Jase
Why?
Sophie
Because I’m here with you.
Jase
I like that.
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Scene 4-5 (if you want the previous three scenes, check out the previous posts)
Scene: Jase sitting in a chair at school doing a word search
Jase
There’s one word, (pause) there’s another.
(Enter Sophie)
Sophie
And here’s one more.
Jase
Hey I didn’t see you there.
Sophie
Well here I am.
Jase
I like when you help me with these. You’re always so good at them.
Sophie
It’s because I read so many books. You should try to read more. It might help.
(Walks across the room towards desk.)
Jase
I have tried. I can’t focus long enough. Where are you going?
Sophie
I’m just setting some things down on the table. Don’t worry I’m right here.
Jase
I was thinking about doing something with my hair.
Sophie
Like what?
Jase
Well maybe go blonde.
Sophie
Huh?
Jase
Well you like Alexander Skarsgard and his hair is blond. I thought maybe I should dye my hair blond…or grow it long. Do you think I would look better?
Sophie
No! Please don’t do that. I think you look fine as you are. Much better with brown hair.
Jase
Yeah I thought so too. Hey, look what I have.
Sophie
Oooh what’s this?
Jase
Well go ahead, look through it.
(Sophie pages through book.)
Sophie
Is this what I think it is?
(Jase takes book back.)
Jase
Yup. My parents got me a brand new mixer for my birthday.
Sophie
That’s awesome!
Jase
They didn’t quite get the reaction they were expecting though.
Sophie
Why is that?
Jase
I opened it and all I could think of was how much I wanted to show you what I got, and how excited you would be. Actually that might have been the first thing I said. I can’t wait until Sophie sees this. Not thank you, but Sophie needs to see this.
Sophie
I feel special.
Jase
Sophie, how old are you?
Sophie
What made you bring that up?
Jase
Oh it just crossed my mind talking about birthdays and presents. You don’t want to say?
Sophie
Not really.
Jase
I mean I know you are younger, but by how much?
Sophie
I’m three years younger than you.
(Clearly embarrassed)
Jase
That’s it.
Sophie
You thought more?
Jase
No, I wasn’t really sure. So you are the same age as Tucker?
Sophie
Yes.
Jase
So that’s why you liked him.
(An aha! moment.)
You thought you should like someone your own age. You don’t have to do that.
Sophie
I know.
Jase
Everyone says you still like Tucker.
Sophie
Are you kidding me? You know it’s not true, right?
Jase
Are you sure. Is it really not true?
Sophie
You know better. Why would I lie to you?
(Jase lays his head on Sophie’s arm and she pulls away.)
Jase no! Didn’t we talk about this already?
Jase
I broke up with Tessa.
(Rests his head back on her.)
Sophie
Although this is nice. I have to get going to band practice. I’m so glad the teacher actually lets me leave. It’s pretty understanding of her.
Jase
Hey how is the whole band thing going? You never tell me anything about it.
Sophie
It’s going pretty good. Apparently the band is going to play at school liturgies. We’ll start at middle school liturgies, and if we are good enough we’ll eventually play at our liturgies
Jase
Who is even in this band?
Sophie
Well it’s me, Tucker, and…
Jase
What? Tucker is in the band. Isn’t that convenient.
Sophie
But I don’t like him! Didn’t we just go over this a few seconds ago?
Jase
Oh no you just leave class frequently to spend time with him.
Sophie
It’s band practice. He’s not the only person in the band.
Jase
But he is in the band. You leave to be with Tucker. You leave me to be with him.
Sophie
Don’t even say that! You know that’s not true!
Jase
I just, I can’t stand to be in the same room as you. I can’t look at you.
(Exits)
Sophie
Fantastic!
(Sings – “Scattering Weaknesses”)
Your weaknesses crumble me.
I’m breaking apart.
Pieces of me are scattering on the floor.
Having to stay strong is too much.
I can’t care if you can’t trust.
There’s no more to give, and nothing is ever enough
Love to you is placing blame.
Making others the reason for your unending pain.
I’m already drawn into this mess.
I have no defenses.
If I could just get through.
Tear down the walls you have conveniently built.
I can’t create what is not there.
I won’t take the fall.
I can’t care if you can’t trust.
There’s no more to give and nothing is ever enough.
(Jase enters as the song ends.)
Are you going to be ok? I don’t like seeing you so upset.
Jase
I just needed something to drink. The juice machines were on, so that made me happy.
(Sophie still looks quite freaked out by what just occurred.)
Sophie
Well I guess it will be a while before I see you again after this week. Summer break never seems much like a break. There’s always something going on.
Jase
Aren’t you going to be in the workout program again this summer? The one with the football team?
Sophie
And…
Jase
And the one cheerleader.
(Laughs)
Sophie
Yes, I am.
Jase
Tucker and I will both be there.
Sophie
Oh, great. (Sarcastic)
Scene: Sophie and Tucker waiting during summer
Tucker
I’m going to bench press now. Can you spot me?
Sophie
I don’t think I’m strong enough. If you were to drop anything, I don’t think I could catch it.
Tucker
Don’t worry, you’ll be fine.
(Starts to bench press and then Jase enters.)
Jase
Shit!
(Tucker sits up and looks at Jase.)
Tucker
That is no way to speak in Sophie’s presence.
Jase
Seriously, shut up. We have bigger problems. The car won’t start.
Sophie
What do you think is wrong?
Jase
Not sure, I mean we just had stuff fixed on it last week. Nothing should be wrong already.
Sophie
It’s ok we can wait.
Jase
That’s not the thing though. I have a dentist’s appointment in…
(Looks at watch)
five minutes. Great!
Sophie
Don’t worry we’ll get things figured out.
Jase
Yeah I sure hope so. In the mean time I need to change. I can’t be wearing this
sweaty shirt there. I feel they probably wouldn’t appreciate it.
(Takes off shirt to switch to other shirt. Tucker takes off shirt as well.)
What the hell are you doing? (To Tucker.)
Tucker
It’s hot out, I wanted to take off my shirt.
Jase
Right, show off. I needed to change, you didn’t. Put a shirt on!
Tucker
No! You can’t make me.
Jase
Oh great now we’re dealing with a three year old. I’m going to go see what I can do with the car.
(Exits)
Tucker
So… do you want to play some basketball? I mean that is if you are up for the
challenge.
Sophie
Are you kidding me I could totally take you!
(Sophie starts dribbling basketball. Tucker is playing defense. Tucker eventually falls backward)
I’m so sorry! Are you ok?
Tucker
I think I’ll be fine.
(Sophie goes to help Tucker off of the ground. Jase enters. Sophie and Tucker have a “moment” and do not let go of each other’s hand until Sophie notices Jase and drops Tucker’s hand.)
Sophie
He fell I was just helping him.
Jase
The car is fixed.
Jase
There’s one word, (pause) there’s another.
(Enter Sophie)
Sophie
And here’s one more.
Jase
Hey I didn’t see you there.
Sophie
Well here I am.
Jase
I like when you help me with these. You’re always so good at them.
Sophie
It’s because I read so many books. You should try to read more. It might help.
(Walks across the room towards desk.)
Jase
I have tried. I can’t focus long enough. Where are you going?
Sophie
I’m just setting some things down on the table. Don’t worry I’m right here.
Jase
I was thinking about doing something with my hair.
Sophie
Like what?
Jase
Well maybe go blonde.
Sophie
Huh?
Jase
Well you like Alexander Skarsgard and his hair is blond. I thought maybe I should dye my hair blond…or grow it long. Do you think I would look better?
Sophie
No! Please don’t do that. I think you look fine as you are. Much better with brown hair.
Jase
Yeah I thought so too. Hey, look what I have.
Sophie
Oooh what’s this?
Jase
Well go ahead, look through it.
(Sophie pages through book.)
Sophie
Is this what I think it is?
(Jase takes book back.)
Jase
Yup. My parents got me a brand new mixer for my birthday.
Sophie
That’s awesome!
Jase
They didn’t quite get the reaction they were expecting though.
Sophie
Why is that?
Jase
I opened it and all I could think of was how much I wanted to show you what I got, and how excited you would be. Actually that might have been the first thing I said. I can’t wait until Sophie sees this. Not thank you, but Sophie needs to see this.
Sophie
I feel special.
Jase
Sophie, how old are you?
Sophie
What made you bring that up?
Jase
Oh it just crossed my mind talking about birthdays and presents. You don’t want to say?
Sophie
Not really.
Jase
I mean I know you are younger, but by how much?
Sophie
I’m three years younger than you.
(Clearly embarrassed)
Jase
That’s it.
Sophie
You thought more?
Jase
No, I wasn’t really sure. So you are the same age as Tucker?
Sophie
Yes.
Jase
So that’s why you liked him.
(An aha! moment.)
You thought you should like someone your own age. You don’t have to do that.
Sophie
I know.
Jase
Everyone says you still like Tucker.
Sophie
Are you kidding me? You know it’s not true, right?
Jase
Are you sure. Is it really not true?
Sophie
You know better. Why would I lie to you?
(Jase lays his head on Sophie’s arm and she pulls away.)
Jase no! Didn’t we talk about this already?
Jase
I broke up with Tessa.
(Rests his head back on her.)
Sophie
Although this is nice. I have to get going to band practice. I’m so glad the teacher actually lets me leave. It’s pretty understanding of her.
Jase
Hey how is the whole band thing going? You never tell me anything about it.
Sophie
It’s going pretty good. Apparently the band is going to play at school liturgies. We’ll start at middle school liturgies, and if we are good enough we’ll eventually play at our liturgies
Jase
Who is even in this band?
Sophie
Well it’s me, Tucker, and…
Jase
What? Tucker is in the band. Isn’t that convenient.
Sophie
But I don’t like him! Didn’t we just go over this a few seconds ago?
Jase
Oh no you just leave class frequently to spend time with him.
Sophie
It’s band practice. He’s not the only person in the band.
Jase
But he is in the band. You leave to be with Tucker. You leave me to be with him.
Sophie
Don’t even say that! You know that’s not true!
Jase
I just, I can’t stand to be in the same room as you. I can’t look at you.
(Exits)
Sophie
Fantastic!
(Sings – “Scattering Weaknesses”)
Your weaknesses crumble me.
I’m breaking apart.
Pieces of me are scattering on the floor.
Having to stay strong is too much.
I can’t care if you can’t trust.
There’s no more to give, and nothing is ever enough
Love to you is placing blame.
Making others the reason for your unending pain.
I’m already drawn into this mess.
I have no defenses.
If I could just get through.
Tear down the walls you have conveniently built.
I can’t create what is not there.
I won’t take the fall.
I can’t care if you can’t trust.
There’s no more to give and nothing is ever enough.
(Jase enters as the song ends.)
Are you going to be ok? I don’t like seeing you so upset.
Jase
I just needed something to drink. The juice machines were on, so that made me happy.
(Sophie still looks quite freaked out by what just occurred.)
Sophie
Well I guess it will be a while before I see you again after this week. Summer break never seems much like a break. There’s always something going on.
Jase
Aren’t you going to be in the workout program again this summer? The one with the football team?
Sophie
And…
Jase
And the one cheerleader.
(Laughs)
Sophie
Yes, I am.
Jase
Tucker and I will both be there.
Sophie
Oh, great. (Sarcastic)
Scene: Sophie and Tucker waiting during summer
Tucker
I’m going to bench press now. Can you spot me?
Sophie
I don’t think I’m strong enough. If you were to drop anything, I don’t think I could catch it.
Tucker
Don’t worry, you’ll be fine.
(Starts to bench press and then Jase enters.)
Jase
Shit!
(Tucker sits up and looks at Jase.)
Tucker
That is no way to speak in Sophie’s presence.
Jase
Seriously, shut up. We have bigger problems. The car won’t start.
Sophie
What do you think is wrong?
Jase
Not sure, I mean we just had stuff fixed on it last week. Nothing should be wrong already.
Sophie
It’s ok we can wait.
Jase
That’s not the thing though. I have a dentist’s appointment in…
(Looks at watch)
five minutes. Great!
Sophie
Don’t worry we’ll get things figured out.
Jase
Yeah I sure hope so. In the mean time I need to change. I can’t be wearing this
sweaty shirt there. I feel they probably wouldn’t appreciate it.
(Takes off shirt to switch to other shirt. Tucker takes off shirt as well.)
What the hell are you doing? (To Tucker.)
Tucker
It’s hot out, I wanted to take off my shirt.
Jase
Right, show off. I needed to change, you didn’t. Put a shirt on!
Tucker
No! You can’t make me.
Jase
Oh great now we’re dealing with a three year old. I’m going to go see what I can do with the car.
(Exits)
Tucker
So… do you want to play some basketball? I mean that is if you are up for the
challenge.
Sophie
Are you kidding me I could totally take you!
(Sophie starts dribbling basketball. Tucker is playing defense. Tucker eventually falls backward)
I’m so sorry! Are you ok?
Tucker
I think I’ll be fine.
(Sophie goes to help Tucker off of the ground. Jase enters. Sophie and Tucker have a “moment” and do not let go of each other’s hand until Sophie notices Jase and drops Tucker’s hand.)
Sophie
He fell I was just helping him.
Jase
The car is fixed.
Friday, December 4, 2009
3rd scene - read previous post for first 2 scenes.
Scene: In Tucker’s room
(Tucker is sitting in his room which only takes up a small portion of the stage. It
is the focus of attention because of light placement. The rest of the stage is black and unlit. Jase then enters)
Tucker
Hey, what’s up?
Jase
I’m breaking up with Tessa.
Tucker
Ok, wow. I was thinking more along the lines of “not much Tucker, what’s up with you”. Why are you breaking up with her?
Jase
I don’t like her anymore. She acts like we’re in a marriage. Some kind of sick dysfunctional marriage. I’m sixteen, almost seventeen! I don’t want to be a husband.
Tucker
Makes sense. Moving on to more important things... Has Sophie said anything about me in class? Like when you two talk? You said you were going to help me.
Jase
I read a song she wrote, “Idealistic Dream”. It’s beautiful.
Tucker
If it’s beautiful, then it must be about me.
(Tucker smiles while Jase glares)
Jase
It’s not about you. I brought it home with me if you want to read it.
(Hands the song to Tucker and leaves)
Tucker
(Tucker begins to sing the song that he is reading over – “Idealistic Dream”)
You don’t even know what I see.
Somehow you make all the bad go away.
Maybe if I was a different person, you wouldn’t look at me the same.
Your eyes pierce my soul, my idealistic dream.
You make everything alright.
I feel I am losing myself slowly.
As long as you’re here I know I’m still alive.
(The remainder of the stage lights come up and we see the room divided into three segments – Tucker’s section, Jase’s section, and Sophie’s section.)
Jase
I’ve been ignored for so very long.
If you didn’t have so many guys to choose from, you could see how happy we would be.
Your eyes pierce my soul, my idealistic dream.
You make everything alright.
I feel I am losing myself slowly.
As long as you’re here I know I’m still alive.
Sophie
Such an obsessive personality.
I’m so blind from denying reality.
Trying to find ways to stand out, but I can’t compete anymore.
All
Your eyes pierce my soul, my idealistic dream.
You make everything alright.
I feel I am losing myself slowly.
As long as you’re here I know I’m still alive.
Sophie
Your eyes pierce my soul, my idealistic.
Your eyes pierce my soul, you mean everything to me.
I know I’m still alive you when you are here.
Please be near.
(Tucker is sitting in his room which only takes up a small portion of the stage. It
is the focus of attention because of light placement. The rest of the stage is black and unlit. Jase then enters)
Tucker
Hey, what’s up?
Jase
I’m breaking up with Tessa.
Tucker
Ok, wow. I was thinking more along the lines of “not much Tucker, what’s up with you”. Why are you breaking up with her?
Jase
I don’t like her anymore. She acts like we’re in a marriage. Some kind of sick dysfunctional marriage. I’m sixteen, almost seventeen! I don’t want to be a husband.
Tucker
Makes sense. Moving on to more important things... Has Sophie said anything about me in class? Like when you two talk? You said you were going to help me.
Jase
I read a song she wrote, “Idealistic Dream”. It’s beautiful.
Tucker
If it’s beautiful, then it must be about me.
(Tucker smiles while Jase glares)
Jase
It’s not about you. I brought it home with me if you want to read it.
(Hands the song to Tucker and leaves)
Tucker
(Tucker begins to sing the song that he is reading over – “Idealistic Dream”)
You don’t even know what I see.
Somehow you make all the bad go away.
Maybe if I was a different person, you wouldn’t look at me the same.
Your eyes pierce my soul, my idealistic dream.
You make everything alright.
I feel I am losing myself slowly.
As long as you’re here I know I’m still alive.
(The remainder of the stage lights come up and we see the room divided into three segments – Tucker’s section, Jase’s section, and Sophie’s section.)
Jase
I’ve been ignored for so very long.
If you didn’t have so many guys to choose from, you could see how happy we would be.
Your eyes pierce my soul, my idealistic dream.
You make everything alright.
I feel I am losing myself slowly.
As long as you’re here I know I’m still alive.
Sophie
Such an obsessive personality.
I’m so blind from denying reality.
Trying to find ways to stand out, but I can’t compete anymore.
All
Your eyes pierce my soul, my idealistic dream.
You make everything alright.
I feel I am losing myself slowly.
As long as you’re here I know I’m still alive.
Sophie
Your eyes pierce my soul, my idealistic.
Your eyes pierce my soul, you mean everything to me.
I know I’m still alive you when you are here.
Please be near.
Thursday, December 3, 2009
First 2 scenes for "Songs for November"
Scene: Sophie and Jase back in high school at concession stand
Jase
What can I get for you?
Sophie
Um, I’m not quite sure yet. I’m still looking.
Jase
(Leans on the counter)
I was watching you and honestly you don’t seem too interested with what’s going on. Do you not want to be here?
Sophie
Oh you know, you show up because everyone else will be here. By the way, I’m Sophie.
Jase
(Laughs)
I already know that.
Sophie
You do? I’m sorry, I don’t know who you are. Should I?
Jase
I sit right next to you in class. I’m Jase.
Sophie
Wait that kid is a (pause)…I mean (pause) he wears glasses. You are most definitely not… (pause) You don’t (pause) … you look nice.
(She smiles nervously.)
Jase
You mean these glasses.
(Pulls out glasses.)
I switched to contacts this week. I’m not quite used to them yet, but if you think they’re doing something for me than they can’t be that bad.
(Tucker enters dribbling a basketball.)
Sophie
Do you know that guy?
Jase
Vaguely. Do you?
Sophie
My mom always used to say how attractive she thought he was going to be someday.
Jase
Didn’t you think so?
Sophie
I thought he was awkward. Not anymore. He’s definitely looks good! Ok I’m sorry that was a weird moment.
Jase
He’s my brother.
Sophie
And now things are even more awkward. Well it was nice meeting you…
Jase
Jase
Sophie
Yes Jase, I guess I’ll be seeing you then. Now that I know who you are I won’t forget
you.
Jase
Wait! Sophie!
Sophie
Yeah.
Jase
Didn’t you ask Tucker to homecoming?
Sophie
I did, but he can’t go. Something about his parents wouldn’t allow it because it’s his older brother’s turn first. So I guess that would be you.
Jase
I’m really sorry about that. If you want to hang out that night, we could. I’m not exactly Tucker, but I could try to be an adequate replacement. At least you won’t be spending the entire dance alone.
Sophie
Thanks I’d like that.
Song: Arcade Games
Jase
This is starting out different than before.
For once I don’t know what to expect.
I’ve been set off-balanced.
Sophie
Every time I see you I want to melt.I regret that I don’t have more information.
Don’t want to give into temptation.
Jase
You are not what I was looking for.
I’m not even smart enough to know the right words.
Sophie
I could need some help with explaining why I feel the way I do.Even though I barely know you.
Jase
I find it likely that you could be perfection.
Separated by the wrong place and time.
I am flawed by wishful thinking of being near you again.
There, I’ve said it. I’ve got it out.
Sophie
I still don’t know what you’re all about.
I don’t want to be the crazy girl.
Sophie& Jase
Always misinterpreting other people’s actions
I know to realize a simple conversation doesn’t always mean attraction.
(Exits)
Scene: Jase and Sophie walking in
Jase
Where should I set this?
(Carrying an empty cookie tin)
Sophie
Right there is fine. It’s too bad all of those people were afraid to eat my cookies. Just because they look weird doesn’t mean they taste weird.
Jase
I thought they were good.
Sophie
I could tell. You ate all of them. You didn’t have to do that. I wouldn’t have been upset with people not eating cookies. They are just cookies.
Jase
Well I ate them because I liked them, not to make you feel better. Really does everything have to come back to you? (Sarcastic tone)
(Sophie and Jase laugh)
Sophie
You are so nice to me.
Jase
Well people do say I treat you better than my girlfriend.
Sophie
I’m not sure how to respond to that.
Jase
It’s a good thing, I suppose. I’m a terrible boyfriend. I don’t mean to be. (pause) I’m thirsty.
(Grabs Sophie’s soda)
Sophie
Wait no, I don’t let people…
(Jase takes a sip of Sophie’s soda)
drink from my sodas.
Jase
Germaphobe! What’s the paper you keep writing on?
Sophie
It’s a song I wrote.
Jase
Can I see it?
Sophie
Sure. It’s not very good.
Jase
Well I’ll be the judge of that.
(Scans the song)
I like the song. It’s a very good representation of Tucker.
Sophie
It’s not about Tucker.
Jase
Oh yes it is! “Your eyes pierce my soul.” That screams Tucker. He does have pretty sexy eyes.
Sophie
I am not going to give in. It’s not about him.
Jase
I could give this to him for you! He would love to read it.
Sophie
No!
Jase
Oh come on this is way too cute to pass up. You know I do see him every day. I live with him. My bedroom is right next to his. I’ve seen him in boxers.
Sophie
You’re terrible!
Jase
Maybe I am.
(Jase lays his head on Sophie. Sophie drinks out of her soda, hands it to Jase and he takes a sip. Then she pulls away.)
Sophie
I can’t do this. It isn’t fair. You have a girlfriend.
(Sophie exits)
Jase
And she leaves. Can’t I ever do anything right? Maybe break up with my girlfriend. That would be a start.
(Sings - “Always Known”)
I thought I knew what I wanted.
Something I forced upon myself.
Dreams created my fake reality.
I ignored my possibilities
I’ve never been able to see what’s in front of me.
I always passed you off as too good for me.
I think you know what I see.
You must have always known.
How you’ve gotten me through amazes me.
Just having you around make me happy.
Wondering what you think of me.
I’ve never been able to see what’s in front of me.
I always passed you off as too good for me.
I think you know what I see.
You must have always known.
I wonder sometimes if I really deserve your attention.
That you think I’m a person I can’t be.
I realize I’m wrong whenever you look at me.
I’ve never been able to see what’s in front of me.
I always passed you off as too good for me.
I think you know what I see.
You must have always known.
(Jase exits)
Jase
What can I get for you?
Sophie
Um, I’m not quite sure yet. I’m still looking.
Jase
(Leans on the counter)
I was watching you and honestly you don’t seem too interested with what’s going on. Do you not want to be here?
Sophie
Oh you know, you show up because everyone else will be here. By the way, I’m Sophie.
Jase
(Laughs)
I already know that.
Sophie
You do? I’m sorry, I don’t know who you are. Should I?
Jase
I sit right next to you in class. I’m Jase.
Sophie
Wait that kid is a (pause)…I mean (pause) he wears glasses. You are most definitely not… (pause) You don’t (pause) … you look nice.
(She smiles nervously.)
Jase
You mean these glasses.
(Pulls out glasses.)
I switched to contacts this week. I’m not quite used to them yet, but if you think they’re doing something for me than they can’t be that bad.
(Tucker enters dribbling a basketball.)
Sophie
Do you know that guy?
Jase
Vaguely. Do you?
Sophie
My mom always used to say how attractive she thought he was going to be someday.
Jase
Didn’t you think so?
Sophie
I thought he was awkward. Not anymore. He’s definitely looks good! Ok I’m sorry that was a weird moment.
Jase
He’s my brother.
Sophie
And now things are even more awkward. Well it was nice meeting you…
Jase
Jase
Sophie
Yes Jase, I guess I’ll be seeing you then. Now that I know who you are I won’t forget
you.
Jase
Wait! Sophie!
Sophie
Yeah.
Jase
Didn’t you ask Tucker to homecoming?
Sophie
I did, but he can’t go. Something about his parents wouldn’t allow it because it’s his older brother’s turn first. So I guess that would be you.
Jase
I’m really sorry about that. If you want to hang out that night, we could. I’m not exactly Tucker, but I could try to be an adequate replacement. At least you won’t be spending the entire dance alone.
Sophie
Thanks I’d like that.
Song: Arcade Games
Jase
This is starting out different than before.
For once I don’t know what to expect.
I’ve been set off-balanced.
Sophie
Every time I see you I want to melt.I regret that I don’t have more information.
Don’t want to give into temptation.
Jase
You are not what I was looking for.
I’m not even smart enough to know the right words.
Sophie
I could need some help with explaining why I feel the way I do.Even though I barely know you.
Jase
I find it likely that you could be perfection.
Separated by the wrong place and time.
I am flawed by wishful thinking of being near you again.
There, I’ve said it. I’ve got it out.
Sophie
I still don’t know what you’re all about.
I don’t want to be the crazy girl.
Sophie& Jase
Always misinterpreting other people’s actions
I know to realize a simple conversation doesn’t always mean attraction.
(Exits)
Scene: Jase and Sophie walking in
Jase
Where should I set this?
(Carrying an empty cookie tin)
Sophie
Right there is fine. It’s too bad all of those people were afraid to eat my cookies. Just because they look weird doesn’t mean they taste weird.
Jase
I thought they were good.
Sophie
I could tell. You ate all of them. You didn’t have to do that. I wouldn’t have been upset with people not eating cookies. They are just cookies.
Jase
Well I ate them because I liked them, not to make you feel better. Really does everything have to come back to you? (Sarcastic tone)
(Sophie and Jase laugh)
Sophie
You are so nice to me.
Jase
Well people do say I treat you better than my girlfriend.
Sophie
I’m not sure how to respond to that.
Jase
It’s a good thing, I suppose. I’m a terrible boyfriend. I don’t mean to be. (pause) I’m thirsty.
(Grabs Sophie’s soda)
Sophie
Wait no, I don’t let people…
(Jase takes a sip of Sophie’s soda)
drink from my sodas.
Jase
Germaphobe! What’s the paper you keep writing on?
Sophie
It’s a song I wrote.
Jase
Can I see it?
Sophie
Sure. It’s not very good.
Jase
Well I’ll be the judge of that.
(Scans the song)
I like the song. It’s a very good representation of Tucker.
Sophie
It’s not about Tucker.
Jase
Oh yes it is! “Your eyes pierce my soul.” That screams Tucker. He does have pretty sexy eyes.
Sophie
I am not going to give in. It’s not about him.
Jase
I could give this to him for you! He would love to read it.
Sophie
No!
Jase
Oh come on this is way too cute to pass up. You know I do see him every day. I live with him. My bedroom is right next to his. I’ve seen him in boxers.
Sophie
You’re terrible!
Jase
Maybe I am.
(Jase lays his head on Sophie. Sophie drinks out of her soda, hands it to Jase and he takes a sip. Then she pulls away.)
Sophie
I can’t do this. It isn’t fair. You have a girlfriend.
(Sophie exits)
Jase
And she leaves. Can’t I ever do anything right? Maybe break up with my girlfriend. That would be a start.
(Sings - “Always Known”)
I thought I knew what I wanted.
Something I forced upon myself.
Dreams created my fake reality.
I ignored my possibilities
I’ve never been able to see what’s in front of me.
I always passed you off as too good for me.
I think you know what I see.
You must have always known.
How you’ve gotten me through amazes me.
Just having you around make me happy.
Wondering what you think of me.
I’ve never been able to see what’s in front of me.
I always passed you off as too good for me.
I think you know what I see.
You must have always known.
I wonder sometimes if I really deserve your attention.
That you think I’m a person I can’t be.
I realize I’m wrong whenever you look at me.
I’ve never been able to see what’s in front of me.
I always passed you off as too good for me.
I think you know what I see.
You must have always known.
(Jase exits)
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Arcade Games
Here are some new song lyrics since it has been almost a month...
Arcade Games
This is starting out different than before.
For once I don’t know what to expect.
I’ve been set off-balanced.
Every time I see you I want to melt.
I regret that I don’t have more information.
Don’t want to give into temptation.
You are not what I was looking for.
I think this makes me some kind of cougar in training.
Isn't that what they call it these days?
I’m not even cool enough to know the right words.
I could need some help with explaining why I feel the way I do.
Even though I barely know you.
There, I’ve said it.
I’ve got it out.
I still don’t know what you’re all about.
I don’t want to be the crazy girl.
Always misinterpreting other people’s actions.
I know to realize a stuffed animal doesn’t always mean attraction.
Arcade Games
This is starting out different than before.
For once I don’t know what to expect.
I’ve been set off-balanced.
Every time I see you I want to melt.
I regret that I don’t have more information.
Don’t want to give into temptation.
You are not what I was looking for.
I think this makes me some kind of cougar in training.
Isn't that what they call it these days?
I’m not even cool enough to know the right words.
I could need some help with explaining why I feel the way I do.
Even though I barely know you.
There, I’ve said it.
I’ve got it out.
I still don’t know what you’re all about.
I don’t want to be the crazy girl.
Always misinterpreting other people’s actions.
I know to realize a stuffed animal doesn’t always mean attraction.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
My Mistake
My Mistake
I think I set myself up again.
This part has been written for quite some time.
You don’t have to spell it out for me.
I can read inbetween the lines.
Chorus:
Oh wait, my mistake.
I forgot this story doesn’t end happy.
Not for me at least.
I don’t know what I was expecting.
I don’t need eloquently written words for your reasons why.
All you really have to do is say goodbye.
I’ve relinquished control.
I’m learning what it means to be weak.
I’m finding it won’t make a difference to you.
That I can already see.
Chorus:
Oh wait, my mistake.
I forgot this story doesn’t end happy.
Not for me at least.
I don’t know what I was expecting.
I don’t need eloquently written words for your reasons why.
All you really have to do is say goodbye.
I’m a mess of contradictions.
When I say go I really mean stay.
So what do you think it means when I say I never want to see your face?
Chorus:
Oh wait, my mistake.
I forgot this story doesn’t end happy.
Not for me at least.
I don’t know what I was expecting.
I don’t need eloquently written words for your reasons why.
All you really have to do is say goodbye.
I think I set myself up again.
This part has been written for quite some time.
You don’t have to spell it out for me.
I can read inbetween the lines.
Chorus:
Oh wait, my mistake.
I forgot this story doesn’t end happy.
Not for me at least.
I don’t know what I was expecting.
I don’t need eloquently written words for your reasons why.
All you really have to do is say goodbye.
I’ve relinquished control.
I’m learning what it means to be weak.
I’m finding it won’t make a difference to you.
That I can already see.
Chorus:
Oh wait, my mistake.
I forgot this story doesn’t end happy.
Not for me at least.
I don’t know what I was expecting.
I don’t need eloquently written words for your reasons why.
All you really have to do is say goodbye.
I’m a mess of contradictions.
When I say go I really mean stay.
So what do you think it means when I say I never want to see your face?
Chorus:
Oh wait, my mistake.
I forgot this story doesn’t end happy.
Not for me at least.
I don’t know what I was expecting.
I don’t need eloquently written words for your reasons why.
All you really have to do is say goodbye.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Overlooked Possibility
Just a short poem I thought of. I wrote this with the assistance of my cousin Ashley.
Overlooked Possibility
You may not remember our introduction.
Our paths crossed for just a moment.
At the time my attention was averted.
Too young to realize future possibilities.
I now think about you constantly.
I find it likely that you could be perfection.
Separated by the wrong place and time.
I am flawed by wishful thinking of meeting again.
I have always been devastatingly drawn to a guy who can play guitar.
Overlooked Possibility
You may not remember our introduction.
Our paths crossed for just a moment.
At the time my attention was averted.
Too young to realize future possibilities.
I now think about you constantly.
I find it likely that you could be perfection.
Separated by the wrong place and time.
I am flawed by wishful thinking of meeting again.
I have always been devastatingly drawn to a guy who can play guitar.
Our Escape
Our Escape
Why do you stand there silent?
I know you must have something to say.
I’ve been waiting for a response.
Some kind of reaction.
I need to know it will all be ok.
Chorus:
What if I said there was a plane ticket with your name on it?
It could be our escape.
Always struggling to stay free.
I’m tired of the same view.
We could sit on the beach in Mexico.
It really doesn’t matter as long as it’s you and me.
I know it’s misguided.
But I need to put my faith in something tangible.
Something I can see.
We’ve lost control of all our surroundings.
I need a change of scenery.
Chorus:
What if I said there was a plane ticket with your name on it?
It could be our escape.
Always struggling to stay free.
I’m tired of the same view.
London, Paris, or maybe Rome.
It really doesn’t matter as long as it’s you and me.
My heart is set on a new adventure.
I can have my bags packed by later today.
Stop making excuses about responsibilities.
I know for us they can all wait.
Chorus:
What if I said there was a plane ticket with your name on it?
It could be our escape.
Always struggling to stay free.
I’m tired of the same view.
We could learn a new language by the Mediterranean Sea.
It really doesn’t matter as long as it’s you and me.
Why do you stand there silent?
I know you must have something to say.
I’ve been waiting for a response.
Some kind of reaction.
I need to know it will all be ok.
Chorus:
What if I said there was a plane ticket with your name on it?
It could be our escape.
Always struggling to stay free.
I’m tired of the same view.
We could sit on the beach in Mexico.
It really doesn’t matter as long as it’s you and me.
I know it’s misguided.
But I need to put my faith in something tangible.
Something I can see.
We’ve lost control of all our surroundings.
I need a change of scenery.
Chorus:
What if I said there was a plane ticket with your name on it?
It could be our escape.
Always struggling to stay free.
I’m tired of the same view.
London, Paris, or maybe Rome.
It really doesn’t matter as long as it’s you and me.
My heart is set on a new adventure.
I can have my bags packed by later today.
Stop making excuses about responsibilities.
I know for us they can all wait.
Chorus:
What if I said there was a plane ticket with your name on it?
It could be our escape.
Always struggling to stay free.
I’m tired of the same view.
We could learn a new language by the Mediterranean Sea.
It really doesn’t matter as long as it’s you and me.
Monday, January 19, 2009
Life Set to Cynical
So here is the first song I have written in well over a year. I'm so happy with how it turned out. I knew creating this blog would lead to good things.
Life Set to Cynical
I can assure you I’m not as sad as I seem.
As I walk down the same path always expecting to end up in different places.
Which leads to me realize I’m not living the dream.
With the same circumstances only new faces.
Chorus:
If I wanted to take it all back today,
I wouldn’t know where to begin.
I wouldn’t know what to say.
I know you never expected anything different.
I only excel at self-sabotage and pushing people away.
I second guess myself all the time.
I hide behind the words I write on the page.
Your reasoning as to why is as good as mine.
I never promised to be an easy person to gauge.
Chorus:
If I wanted to take it all back today,
I wouldn’t know where to begin.
I wouldn’t know what to say.
I know you never expected anything different.
I only excel at self-sabotage and pushing people away.
And if I have my life set to cynical, does that make me damaged?
If I never believe you,
will I always be one breath away from breakable?
Though my intentions are transparent, I promise I can manage.
Chorus:
If I wanted to take it all back today,
I wouldn’t know where to begin.
I wouldn’t know what to say.
I know you never expected anything different.
I only excel at self-sabotage and pushing people away.
Life Set to Cynical
I can assure you I’m not as sad as I seem.
As I walk down the same path always expecting to end up in different places.
Which leads to me realize I’m not living the dream.
With the same circumstances only new faces.
Chorus:
If I wanted to take it all back today,
I wouldn’t know where to begin.
I wouldn’t know what to say.
I know you never expected anything different.
I only excel at self-sabotage and pushing people away.
I second guess myself all the time.
I hide behind the words I write on the page.
Your reasoning as to why is as good as mine.
I never promised to be an easy person to gauge.
Chorus:
If I wanted to take it all back today,
I wouldn’t know where to begin.
I wouldn’t know what to say.
I know you never expected anything different.
I only excel at self-sabotage and pushing people away.
And if I have my life set to cynical, does that make me damaged?
If I never believe you,
will I always be one breath away from breakable?
Though my intentions are transparent, I promise I can manage.
Chorus:
If I wanted to take it all back today,
I wouldn’t know where to begin.
I wouldn’t know what to say.
I know you never expected anything different.
I only excel at self-sabotage and pushing people away.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Tears in Room 311
I said I would be writing new things constantly, and here is a brand new poem. This is the first thing I've written in over a year which is very exciting to me. I hope you all like it!
Tears in Room 311
I spent hours crying on a hotel bed.
Listened to all of the sad songs I owned.
Mascara streamed down my face in black lines.
Finally allowing myself to feel.
I staged a personal boycott until I was too tired to care.
I put on my best red lipstick and went downstairs to join the crowd.
I realize how pathetic it was in retrospect.
I never wanted to be a flowers-fix-all girl.
Tears in Room 311
I spent hours crying on a hotel bed.
Listened to all of the sad songs I owned.
Mascara streamed down my face in black lines.
Finally allowing myself to feel.
I staged a personal boycott until I was too tired to care.
I put on my best red lipstick and went downstairs to join the crowd.
I realize how pathetic it was in retrospect.
I never wanted to be a flowers-fix-all girl.
Scattering Weaknesses
These are lyrics I wrote specifically for my musical. I just realized that part of these lyrics were taken from a different set of lyrics. I'm a song recycler.
Scattering Weaknesses
Your weaknesses crumble me.
I’m breaking apart.
Pieces of me are scattering on the floor.
Having to stay strong is too much.
I can’t care if you can’t trust.
There’s no more to give, and nothing is ever enough.
Love to you is placing blame.
Making others the reason for your unending pain.
I’m already drawn into this mess.
I have no defenses.
If I could just get through.
Tear down the walls you have conveniently built.
I can’t create what is not there.
I won’t take the fall.
I can’t care if you can’t trust.
There’s no more to give and nothing is ever enough.
Scattering Weaknesses
Your weaknesses crumble me.
I’m breaking apart.
Pieces of me are scattering on the floor.
Having to stay strong is too much.
I can’t care if you can’t trust.
There’s no more to give, and nothing is ever enough.
Love to you is placing blame.
Making others the reason for your unending pain.
I’m already drawn into this mess.
I have no defenses.
If I could just get through.
Tear down the walls you have conveniently built.
I can’t create what is not there.
I won’t take the fall.
I can’t care if you can’t trust.
There’s no more to give and nothing is ever enough.
On a Saturday Night
I plan on attempting to write music to these lyrics soon. This is another one of my favorites.
On a Saturday Night
Blending into the leather couch.
So rigid and cold.
Listening to the dreams of someone else.
Can I try to make you smile today?
Chorus:
I could be your vision, be your muse.
Just to be in your world.
I would live through the songs you sing on a Saturday night.
Is this what you say to a guy who has it all?
Your light draws my mind.
So afraid of falling.
I'd still take the chance to find someone that mirrors me.
Chorus:
I could be your vision, be your muse.
Just to be in your world.
I would live through the songs you sing on a Saturday night.
Is this what you say to a guy who has it all?
Don't you see how much you shine?
What I'd give for you to let me in.
On a Saturday Night
Blending into the leather couch.
So rigid and cold.
Listening to the dreams of someone else.
Can I try to make you smile today?
Chorus:
I could be your vision, be your muse.
Just to be in your world.
I would live through the songs you sing on a Saturday night.
Is this what you say to a guy who has it all?
Your light draws my mind.
So afraid of falling.
I'd still take the chance to find someone that mirrors me.
Chorus:
I could be your vision, be your muse.
Just to be in your world.
I would live through the songs you sing on a Saturday night.
Is this what you say to a guy who has it all?
Don't you see how much you shine?
What I'd give for you to let me in.
Musician's Show
This is a really wordy song. At one point I cut the lyrics down, but I lost that copy.
Musician's Show
I saw my friend the other day.
He hugged me and smiled and we talked for a while.
Not an inch of attraction was there as I pulled away from the curb.
This isn't how my imagination had planned it to be.
Chorus:
The clock on the wall keeps ticking away.
My piano is the only thing that knows how to play.
Everything else just sits in dust.
I put on my fake happy smile as I try to live for a while.
I pretend to have it all figured out.
Such a lie as I'm really just lonely.
I met a man who said how horrible it must be to feel numb.
I thought to myself that's how I feel everyday.
It's like watching your life as a movie.
Never really a part of things in a way.
Chorus:
The clock on the wall keeps ticking away.
My piano is the only thing that knows how to play.
Everything else just sits in dust.
I put on my fake happy smile as I try to live for a while.
I pretend to have it all figured out.
Such a lie as I'm really just lonely.
Sitting and watching the musician's show is how I spend my days.
Hoping somehow every song is about me.
I find peace in the past and every time he looks up to glance is old love being given back.
Play on and maybe someday I'll feel complete.
Musician's Show
I saw my friend the other day.
He hugged me and smiled and we talked for a while.
Not an inch of attraction was there as I pulled away from the curb.
This isn't how my imagination had planned it to be.
Chorus:
The clock on the wall keeps ticking away.
My piano is the only thing that knows how to play.
Everything else just sits in dust.
I put on my fake happy smile as I try to live for a while.
I pretend to have it all figured out.
Such a lie as I'm really just lonely.
I met a man who said how horrible it must be to feel numb.
I thought to myself that's how I feel everyday.
It's like watching your life as a movie.
Never really a part of things in a way.
Chorus:
The clock on the wall keeps ticking away.
My piano is the only thing that knows how to play.
Everything else just sits in dust.
I put on my fake happy smile as I try to live for a while.
I pretend to have it all figured out.
Such a lie as I'm really just lonely.
Sitting and watching the musician's show is how I spend my days.
Hoping somehow every song is about me.
I find peace in the past and every time he looks up to glance is old love being given back.
Play on and maybe someday I'll feel complete.
Stars Listen
Stars Listen
Blue rubber bands painfully break on the wrists of the one who confuses me the most.
Every word he speaks is poison in its entirety.
I sit and ponder my next step, every moment trying not to fall.
Every day it consumes me more than the next.
It's tragic, I don't think I know who he is anymore.
All he has to turn to is the stars.
They alone will listen.
Blue rubber bands painfully break on the wrists of the one who confuses me the most.
Every word he speaks is poison in its entirety.
I sit and ponder my next step, every moment trying not to fall.
Every day it consumes me more than the next.
It's tragic, I don't think I know who he is anymore.
All he has to turn to is the stars.
They alone will listen.
Autumn at Lawrence
These last two poems and three songs were all written during college.
Autumn at Lawrence
Tick, tock. Tick, tock.
As I sit and slowly watch the minutes go by.
Sitting in an old wooden desk that is probably older than me.
Picking up a piece of paper and writing.
Nothing worthwhile, just foolish things.
Staring at the clock again.
Every minute passing by, getting closer to the end.
Enter into a hallway aptly lit.
Flip, flop. Flip, flop.
Climbing up an endless stairway.
Just straight, no excitement.
Where are the twists and turns?
Drip, drop. Drip, drop.
It's raining and I have no umbrella.
Leaves are falling, berries dying.
Crossing a bridge and I feel off-balanced.
Look down at the street below.
Wherever I am walking to this time, I am not alone.
Autumn at Lawrence
Tick, tock. Tick, tock.
As I sit and slowly watch the minutes go by.
Sitting in an old wooden desk that is probably older than me.
Picking up a piece of paper and writing.
Nothing worthwhile, just foolish things.
Staring at the clock again.
Every minute passing by, getting closer to the end.
Enter into a hallway aptly lit.
Flip, flop. Flip, flop.
Climbing up an endless stairway.
Just straight, no excitement.
Where are the twists and turns?
Drip, drop. Drip, drop.
It's raining and I have no umbrella.
Leaves are falling, berries dying.
Crossing a bridge and I feel off-balanced.
Look down at the street below.
Wherever I am walking to this time, I am not alone.
Finally Free
The only song I wrote during my Senior year of high school.
Finally Free
Sometimes I feel I'm slipping away.
Life gets hard to take.
I want to get back to how I used to be.
When I knew how to smile, but that was long ago.
Reality has crushed my dreams.
It has taken everything out of me.
Numbness is setting in.
Lead me to where my pain will be healed.
Set me free, finally free.
How do you get rid of the emptiness?
The dark that takes over the light.
Somewhere along the way I lost my path.
I could not say where I thought it would take me.
Finally Free
Sometimes I feel I'm slipping away.
Life gets hard to take.
I want to get back to how I used to be.
When I knew how to smile, but that was long ago.
Reality has crushed my dreams.
It has taken everything out of me.
Numbness is setting in.
Lead me to where my pain will be healed.
Set me free, finally free.
How do you get rid of the emptiness?
The dark that takes over the light.
Somewhere along the way I lost my path.
I could not say where I thought it would take me.
You
This is the only poem I wrote during Senior year of high school.
You
The same thing that makes me hate makes me love.
The reason I smile is why I cry.
What causes me to suffer brings me happiness.
The one thing I want is the one thing I can't have, you.
You
The same thing that makes me hate makes me love.
The reason I smile is why I cry.
What causes me to suffer brings me happiness.
The one thing I want is the one thing I can't have, you.
Never Again
The only song I wrote during my Junior year of high school.
Never Again
Do you know what you put me through?
I don't ask too much.
I just don't want to get hurt again.
That just isn't how things work out.
Chorus:
Never again will I let myself feel.
I prefer being numb.
Not knowing why I care.
You played with my mind.
Never again.
What did I do to deserve this?
Am I not good enough?
I thought you cared, but you never truly shared how you felt about me.
Chorus:
Never again will I let myself feel.
I prefer being numb.
Not knowing why I care.
You played with my mind.
Never again.
Was it all a game?
Would you play me that same now that you know I really thought it was real?
Never Again
Do you know what you put me through?
I don't ask too much.
I just don't want to get hurt again.
That just isn't how things work out.
Chorus:
Never again will I let myself feel.
I prefer being numb.
Not knowing why I care.
You played with my mind.
Never again.
What did I do to deserve this?
Am I not good enough?
I thought you cared, but you never truly shared how you felt about me.
Chorus:
Never again will I let myself feel.
I prefer being numb.
Not knowing why I care.
You played with my mind.
Never again.
Was it all a game?
Would you play me that same now that you know I really thought it was real?
Broken Promises
Back to poetry. This is from my Junior year of high school.
Broken Promises
My life has been filled with broken promises, and lies in which I thought were true.
If you would've told me the sky was green, I would've believed you.
Now my naive search for people who actually care about me is through.
My insecurities are taking over, and I have nothing left to believe in.
Broken Promises
My life has been filled with broken promises, and lies in which I thought were true.
If you would've told me the sky was green, I would've believed you.
Now my naive search for people who actually care about me is through.
My insecurities are taking over, and I have nothing left to believe in.
Idealistic Dream
This is definitely one of my favorite songs. It is also one of the only songs where I wrote music to go along with it.
Idealistic Dream
You don't even know what I see.
Somehow you make all the bad go away.
Maybe if I were a different person you wouldn't look at me the same.
Chorus:
Your eyes pierce my soul, my idealistic dream.
You make everything alright.
I feel I am losing myself slowly.
As long as you're here I know I'm still alive.
I've been ignored for so very long.
If you didn't have so many girls to choose from, you could see how happy we would be.
Chorus:
Your eyes pierce my soul, my idealistic dream.
You make everything alright.
I feel I am losing myself slowly.
As long as you're here I know I'm still alive.
Such an obsessive personality.
I'm so blind from denying reality.
Trying to find ways to stand out, but I can't compete anymore.
Chorus:
Your eyes pierce my soul, my idealistic dream.
You make everything alright.
I feel I am losing myself slowly.
As long as you're here I know I'm still alive.
Your eyes pierce my soul.
My idealistic dream.
Your eyes pierce my soul.
You mean everything to me.
I know I'm still alive when you are near.
Please be here.
Idealistic Dream
You don't even know what I see.
Somehow you make all the bad go away.
Maybe if I were a different person you wouldn't look at me the same.
Chorus:
Your eyes pierce my soul, my idealistic dream.
You make everything alright.
I feel I am losing myself slowly.
As long as you're here I know I'm still alive.
I've been ignored for so very long.
If you didn't have so many girls to choose from, you could see how happy we would be.
Chorus:
Your eyes pierce my soul, my idealistic dream.
You make everything alright.
I feel I am losing myself slowly.
As long as you're here I know I'm still alive.
Such an obsessive personality.
I'm so blind from denying reality.
Trying to find ways to stand out, but I can't compete anymore.
Chorus:
Your eyes pierce my soul, my idealistic dream.
You make everything alright.
I feel I am losing myself slowly.
As long as you're here I know I'm still alive.
Your eyes pierce my soul.
My idealistic dream.
Your eyes pierce my soul.
You mean everything to me.
I know I'm still alive when you are near.
Please be here.
Always Known
Always Known
I thought I knew what I wanted.
Something I forced upon myself.
Dreams created my fake reality.
I ignored my possibilities.
Chorus:
I've never been able to see what's in front of me.
I always passed you off as too good for me.
I think you know what I see.
You must have always known.
How you've gotten me through amazes me.
Just having you around makes me happy.
Wondering what you think of me.
Chorus:
I've never been able to see what's in front of me.
I always passed you off as too good for me.
I think you know what I see.
You must have always known.
I wonder sometimes if I really deserve your attention.
That you think I'm a person I can't be.
I realize I'm wrong whenever you look at me.
Chorus:
I've never been able to see what's in front of me.
I always passed you off as too good for me.
I think you know what I see.
You must have always known.
I thought I knew what I wanted.
Something I forced upon myself.
Dreams created my fake reality.
I ignored my possibilities.
Chorus:
I've never been able to see what's in front of me.
I always passed you off as too good for me.
I think you know what I see.
You must have always known.
How you've gotten me through amazes me.
Just having you around makes me happy.
Wondering what you think of me.
Chorus:
I've never been able to see what's in front of me.
I always passed you off as too good for me.
I think you know what I see.
You must have always known.
I wonder sometimes if I really deserve your attention.
That you think I'm a person I can't be.
I realize I'm wrong whenever you look at me.
Chorus:
I've never been able to see what's in front of me.
I always passed you off as too good for me.
I think you know what I see.
You must have always known.
So Confused
So Confused
I don't want you to get hurt.
I don't mean to play the games I do.
It's just that I'm so confused.
I can't even comprehend what I've put you through.
Chorus:
How did I get in this mess?
I don't know what to do.
I like him, I like you.
I don't know how to choose.
I know it's hard for you to understand.
My thoughts are the center of my misery.
I just want you to be happy.
All I seem to bring is sorrow.
Chorus:
How did I get in this mess?
I don't know what to do.
I like him, I like you.
I don't know how to choose.
You have to decide what to do.
It's really all up to you.
I'll apologize from the start before I might break your heart.
I don't want you to get hurt.
I don't mean to play the games I do.
It's just that I'm so confused.
I can't even comprehend what I've put you through.
Chorus:
How did I get in this mess?
I don't know what to do.
I like him, I like you.
I don't know how to choose.
I know it's hard for you to understand.
My thoughts are the center of my misery.
I just want you to be happy.
All I seem to bring is sorrow.
Chorus:
How did I get in this mess?
I don't know what to do.
I like him, I like you.
I don't know how to choose.
You have to decide what to do.
It's really all up to you.
I'll apologize from the start before I might break your heart.
Never Will Be
This song is in my musical, but in a completely different format. I don't know exactly what the changed lyrics are because my computer has been in repair for the last month.
Never Will Be
I'm sitting here thinking more than I should.
Seeing your face and your smile in the distance.
The vision is torn away from me leaving me with the thought that you have left.
Chorus:
This time I know that it is goodbye forever.
I know you won't be coming back.
It's a cruel truth to deal with.
Knowing that I can't let go of something that never was and never will be.
I seem to be the one that gets hurt the most.
I'm always the one to take the fall.
Clinging for every strand left from the past to hold on to.
Never willing to give up.
Chorus:
This time I know that it is goodbye forever.
I know you won't be coming back.
It's a cruel truth to deal with.
Knowing that I can't let go of something that never was and never will be.
I'm breaking apart.
Pieces of me are scattering on the floor.
I wait for you to feel the same way about me.
The sad thing is that day will never happen.
Never Will Be
I'm sitting here thinking more than I should.
Seeing your face and your smile in the distance.
The vision is torn away from me leaving me with the thought that you have left.
Chorus:
This time I know that it is goodbye forever.
I know you won't be coming back.
It's a cruel truth to deal with.
Knowing that I can't let go of something that never was and never will be.
I seem to be the one that gets hurt the most.
I'm always the one to take the fall.
Clinging for every strand left from the past to hold on to.
Never willing to give up.
Chorus:
This time I know that it is goodbye forever.
I know you won't be coming back.
It's a cruel truth to deal with.
Knowing that I can't let go of something that never was and never will be.
I'm breaking apart.
Pieces of me are scattering on the floor.
I wait for you to feel the same way about me.
The sad thing is that day will never happen.
Too Late (I Loved You)
Too Late (I Loved You)
I knew things were different between us.
They were special somehow.
I never thought I would live without you.
The pain is far from gone.
How could I not have realized.
Now I know that...
Chorus:
I loved you too late.
I needed you too late.
I don't know how to move on.
You found somebody who couldn't live without you.
Now you are gone.
I stand outside every night, even in the rain.
Hoping someday I'll see you again.
There are so many things I need to ask you.
Maybe you can tell me why...
Chorus:
I loved you too late.
I needed you too late.
I don't know how to move on.
You found somebody who couldn't live without you.
Now you are gone.
Why did my dreams fade away?
Why am I left without you in my life?
I can't find anyone to take your place.
I compare everyone to you.
It's all my fault because...
Chorus:
I loved you too late.
I needed you too late.
I don't know how to move on.
You found somebody who couldn't live without you.
Now you are gone.
I knew things were different between us.
They were special somehow.
I never thought I would live without you.
The pain is far from gone.
How could I not have realized.
Now I know that...
Chorus:
I loved you too late.
I needed you too late.
I don't know how to move on.
You found somebody who couldn't live without you.
Now you are gone.
I stand outside every night, even in the rain.
Hoping someday I'll see you again.
There are so many things I need to ask you.
Maybe you can tell me why...
Chorus:
I loved you too late.
I needed you too late.
I don't know how to move on.
You found somebody who couldn't live without you.
Now you are gone.
Why did my dreams fade away?
Why am I left without you in my life?
I can't find anyone to take your place.
I compare everyone to you.
It's all my fault because...
Chorus:
I loved you too late.
I needed you too late.
I don't know how to move on.
You found somebody who couldn't live without you.
Now you are gone.
Girlfriend Substitute
I wrote a lot of song lyrics during my sophomore year of high school. A lot of the lyrics will be making their way into my musical "Song for November".
Girlfriend Substitute
You act like nothing has changed.
You talk to me the same.
You smile and walk away every single day.
Chorus:
I'm a girlfriend substitute.
That's all I'll ever be.
Can't tell the truth from the lies.
Caught up in a moment.
I've been left behind more than once in my life.
If you only saw the way you look at me you would understand why I could be so confused.
You mean everything to me but I mean nothing to you.
Chorus:
I'm a girlfriend substitute.
That's all I'll ever be.
Can't tell the truth from the lies.
Caught up in a moment.
I've been left behind more than once in my life.
Don't say words if you don't mean them.
All they do is play with my mind.
I'm always the one people depend on.
Why can't I be the one they want?
Chorus:
I'm a girlfriend substitute.
That's all I'll ever be.
Can't tell the truth from the lies.
Caught up in a moment.
I've been left behind more than once in my life.
Nothing will ever change.
Girlfriend Substitute
You act like nothing has changed.
You talk to me the same.
You smile and walk away every single day.
Chorus:
I'm a girlfriend substitute.
That's all I'll ever be.
Can't tell the truth from the lies.
Caught up in a moment.
I've been left behind more than once in my life.
If you only saw the way you look at me you would understand why I could be so confused.
You mean everything to me but I mean nothing to you.
Chorus:
I'm a girlfriend substitute.
That's all I'll ever be.
Can't tell the truth from the lies.
Caught up in a moment.
I've been left behind more than once in my life.
Don't say words if you don't mean them.
All they do is play with my mind.
I'm always the one people depend on.
Why can't I be the one they want?
Chorus:
I'm a girlfriend substitute.
That's all I'll ever be.
Can't tell the truth from the lies.
Caught up in a moment.
I've been left behind more than once in my life.
Nothing will ever change.
Sad Lullaby
The last song from 9th grade.
Sad Lullaby
I sing my sad lullaby.
They're the songs that make me cry.
I've tried to move on, but baby I'm not that strong.
The songs we used to dance they put me in a trance.
I know you're not coming back.
It's only you I lack.
The time went by so quickly.
The memories run right through me.
I wish that you were here.
Can you sense my fear?
Sad Lullaby
I sing my sad lullaby.
They're the songs that make me cry.
I've tried to move on, but baby I'm not that strong.
The songs we used to dance they put me in a trance.
I know you're not coming back.
It's only you I lack.
The time went by so quickly.
The memories run right through me.
I wish that you were here.
Can you sense my fear?
Don't Go
Don't Go
You are leaving.
I sit in the dark.
I start to cry.
Something inside of me, I feel it die.
Chorus:
Don't go, don't go.
I know you don't want to leave me.
Don't go, don't go.
I need you to be here with me.
I thought that I was OK, but my happiness is fading away.
How can you leave me like this?
You don't know what this is doing to me.
Chorus:
Don't go, don't go.
I know you don't want to leave me.
Don't go, don't go.
I need you to be here with me.
You are the one that makes me happy.
When you aren't here I feel empty.
What will I do without you here?
I feel so much sadness inside.
Chorus:
Don't go, don't go.
I know you don't want to leave me.
Don't go, don't go.
I need you to be here with me.
I don't want to say goodbye.
I may never see you again.
My life doesn't make sense without you.
Please stay.
You are leaving.
I sit in the dark.
I start to cry.
Something inside of me, I feel it die.
Chorus:
Don't go, don't go.
I know you don't want to leave me.
Don't go, don't go.
I need you to be here with me.
I thought that I was OK, but my happiness is fading away.
How can you leave me like this?
You don't know what this is doing to me.
Chorus:
Don't go, don't go.
I know you don't want to leave me.
Don't go, don't go.
I need you to be here with me.
You are the one that makes me happy.
When you aren't here I feel empty.
What will I do without you here?
I feel so much sadness inside.
Chorus:
Don't go, don't go.
I know you don't want to leave me.
Don't go, don't go.
I need you to be here with me.
I don't want to say goodbye.
I may never see you again.
My life doesn't make sense without you.
Please stay.
I See It In Your Eyes
I See It In Your Eyes
Having you here, it means so much to me.
I don't know what to say.
You take my breath away.
Chorus:
I've never seen this before, and now I see it in your eyes.
Your smile just makes me want to sit and think how lucky I am.
You make me feel amazing.
You make me feel special just the way you talk to me.
Chorus:
I've never seen this before, and now I see it in your eyes.
Your smile just makes me want to sit and think how lucky I am.
Do we feel the same way?
It doesn't even matter to me.
Just having you here makes everything better.
Chorus:
I've never seen this before, and now I see it in your eyes.
Your smile just makes me want to sit and think how lucky I am.
Having you here, it means so much to me.
I don't know what to say.
You take my breath away.
Chorus:
I've never seen this before, and now I see it in your eyes.
Your smile just makes me want to sit and think how lucky I am.
You make me feel amazing.
You make me feel special just the way you talk to me.
Chorus:
I've never seen this before, and now I see it in your eyes.
Your smile just makes me want to sit and think how lucky I am.
Do we feel the same way?
It doesn't even matter to me.
Just having you here makes everything better.
Chorus:
I've never seen this before, and now I see it in your eyes.
Your smile just makes me want to sit and think how lucky I am.
Why Are You Leaving Me?
Why Are You Leaving Me?
Why do you get so close to me?
Is is just to bring me down?
I'm feeling out of place.
I don't know what to do.
I don't know where to go or who to turn to.
Chorus:
Why are you pushing me away?
Why are you pushing me away?
Is it because you're not getting any younger?
You're already so much older.
It's a big slap in the face, a big slap in the face.
I didn't even say I love you.
So why are you leaving me?
You don't need to protect me.
I can take care of myself just fine.
As you walk away don't turn around to say goodbye.
Having you here doesn't help me.
Chorus:
Why are you pushing me away?
Why are you pushing me away?
Is it because you're not getting any younger?
You're already so much older.
It's a big slap in the face, a big slap in the face.
I didn't even say I love you.
So why are you leaving me?
The longer you wait here isn't going to make me change my mind.
You already made you decision before and left me all alone.
Chorus:
Why are you pushing me away?
Why are you pushing me away?
Is it because you're not getting any younger?
You're already so much older.
It's a big slap in the face, a big slap in the face.
I didn't even say I love you.
So why are you leaving me?
Why do you get so close to me?
Is is just to bring me down?
I'm feeling out of place.
I don't know what to do.
I don't know where to go or who to turn to.
Chorus:
Why are you pushing me away?
Why are you pushing me away?
Is it because you're not getting any younger?
You're already so much older.
It's a big slap in the face, a big slap in the face.
I didn't even say I love you.
So why are you leaving me?
You don't need to protect me.
I can take care of myself just fine.
As you walk away don't turn around to say goodbye.
Having you here doesn't help me.
Chorus:
Why are you pushing me away?
Why are you pushing me away?
Is it because you're not getting any younger?
You're already so much older.
It's a big slap in the face, a big slap in the face.
I didn't even say I love you.
So why are you leaving me?
The longer you wait here isn't going to make me change my mind.
You already made you decision before and left me all alone.
Chorus:
Why are you pushing me away?
Why are you pushing me away?
Is it because you're not getting any younger?
You're already so much older.
It's a big slap in the face, a big slap in the face.
I didn't even say I love you.
So why are you leaving me?
Understand
Song lyrics from 9th grade.
Understand
I see you standing there.
You're indescribable.
There's nothing I can say.
The silence is deafening.
Chorus:
I'll understand if you don't feel the same way.
Things didn't work out as I had planned.
Maybe someday you'll understand.
I write you, but you never have anything to say.
My stories may be asinine, but they mean something to me.
Chorus:
I'll understand if you don't feel the same way.
Things didn't work out as I had planned.
Maybe someday you'll understand.
I'm too confused to even try to comprehend anything in my mind.
An endless story I don't understand.
Chorus:
I'll understand if you don't feel the same way.
Things didn't work out as I had planned.
Maybe someday you'll understand.
Understand
I see you standing there.
You're indescribable.
There's nothing I can say.
The silence is deafening.
Chorus:
I'll understand if you don't feel the same way.
Things didn't work out as I had planned.
Maybe someday you'll understand.
I write you, but you never have anything to say.
My stories may be asinine, but they mean something to me.
Chorus:
I'll understand if you don't feel the same way.
Things didn't work out as I had planned.
Maybe someday you'll understand.
I'm too confused to even try to comprehend anything in my mind.
An endless story I don't understand.
Chorus:
I'll understand if you don't feel the same way.
Things didn't work out as I had planned.
Maybe someday you'll understand.
Darkness
More 9th grade poetry...
Darkness
Poverty, tragedy, and death are here.
What is the cause of this massive distress?
The sky is dark black as I hide in fear.
I am adorned in a dark evening dress.
When will light shine on my sorrowful home?
Darkness enters my cold, death-ridden heart.
Will I be forced to wander all alone?
Why does everyone I love want to part?
Who will love me in the state that I'm in?
Nothing seems possible for me this night.
I feel ugly and deformed from within.
They say that I'm a great friend and I'm bright.
I'm sick of people saying I'm just nice.
I feel as cold and as dreary as ice.
Darkness
Poverty, tragedy, and death are here.
What is the cause of this massive distress?
The sky is dark black as I hide in fear.
I am adorned in a dark evening dress.
When will light shine on my sorrowful home?
Darkness enters my cold, death-ridden heart.
Will I be forced to wander all alone?
Why does everyone I love want to part?
Who will love me in the state that I'm in?
Nothing seems possible for me this night.
I feel ugly and deformed from within.
They say that I'm a great friend and I'm bright.
I'm sick of people saying I'm just nice.
I feel as cold and as dreary as ice.
Dark Clouds
9th grade writing assignment - hurray for iambic pentameter!
Dark Clouds
The dark clouds consume my head late at night.
I lie there terrified to fall asleep.
I cry when you are not holding me tight.
I know not of what is going to creep.
The wind blows, and the old wood door slams shut.
Why have you left me, and will you come back?
When with you butterflies are in my gut.
In my life it is only you I lack.
Without you I will never be the same.
Who is responsible for my life's theft?
Which one of us is the person to blame?
I feel empty, like there is nothing left.
I hope that you will soon realize your love.
It's time to return to my home above.
Dark Clouds
The dark clouds consume my head late at night.
I lie there terrified to fall asleep.
I cry when you are not holding me tight.
I know not of what is going to creep.
The wind blows, and the old wood door slams shut.
Why have you left me, and will you come back?
When with you butterflies are in my gut.
In my life it is only you I lack.
Without you I will never be the same.
Who is responsible for my life's theft?
Which one of us is the person to blame?
I feel empty, like there is nothing left.
I hope that you will soon realize your love.
It's time to return to my home above.
My Life
Moving on to 9th grade poetry... I entered prior poems into a contest and won. Some critic said my poetry was "the soul's turmoil". I didn't like that phrase so I wrote the following poem.
My Life
My emotions are like running water, from my head. My words ramble on without end. No one ever listens, and silence is deafening. I'm numb, not knowing what to think or what to say. I want people to be my friend, but wishing isn't enough. My dreams are my escape. Without them my life would be a hysteric mass of confusion. I know who I am. I'm happy...I think. Maybe it is just that. I think too much. Over-analyzing every situation without end. Loneliness is panic. Too much time of nothingness. Every noise and every shadow. I wish people wouldn't be so mean. Their anger and jealousy stabs me like one hundred daggers. Sometimes I ask why am I the one who people hate? I do nothing to hurt them. They say my writing is the soul's turmoil. You think I believe that. No! I have a better word for it. That is my life....
My Life
My emotions are like running water, from my head. My words ramble on without end. No one ever listens, and silence is deafening. I'm numb, not knowing what to think or what to say. I want people to be my friend, but wishing isn't enough. My dreams are my escape. Without them my life would be a hysteric mass of confusion. I know who I am. I'm happy...I think. Maybe it is just that. I think too much. Over-analyzing every situation without end. Loneliness is panic. Too much time of nothingness. Every noise and every shadow. I wish people wouldn't be so mean. Their anger and jealousy stabs me like one hundred daggers. Sometimes I ask why am I the one who people hate? I do nothing to hurt them. They say my writing is the soul's turmoil. You think I believe that. No! I have a better word for it. That is my life....
Are We Just Friends?
One of the best known songs from the JLB/SDJ project. I sang this at the 8th grade talent show. Definitely a favorite of mine...
Are We Just Friends?
I called to talk to you yesterday.
You sounded confused.
You muttered something I couldn't hear.
And neverminds got in the way.
Chorus:
Are we just friends or are we more?
Let's make a decision or we'll wonder forever more.
Are we just friends or are we more?
Let's make a decision or we'll wonder forever and evermore.
I should have said something.
But nothing came to my mind.
How can you put the way that I feel into such few words?
Chorus:
Are we just friends or are we more?
Let's make a decision or we'll wonder forever more.
Are we just friends or are we more?
Let's make a decision or we'll wonder forever and evermore.
I couldn't handle not talking to you again.
That just wouldn't seem right.
But I guess I'll find out.
All I have to do is pick up the phone and try.
Chorus:
Are we just friends or are we more?
Let's make a decision or we'll wonder forever more.
Are we just friends or are we more?
Let's make a decision or we'll wonder forever and evermore.
Are We Just Friends?
I called to talk to you yesterday.
You sounded confused.
You muttered something I couldn't hear.
And neverminds got in the way.
Chorus:
Are we just friends or are we more?
Let's make a decision or we'll wonder forever more.
Are we just friends or are we more?
Let's make a decision or we'll wonder forever and evermore.
I should have said something.
But nothing came to my mind.
How can you put the way that I feel into such few words?
Chorus:
Are we just friends or are we more?
Let's make a decision or we'll wonder forever more.
Are we just friends or are we more?
Let's make a decision or we'll wonder forever and evermore.
I couldn't handle not talking to you again.
That just wouldn't seem right.
But I guess I'll find out.
All I have to do is pick up the phone and try.
Chorus:
Are we just friends or are we more?
Let's make a decision or we'll wonder forever more.
Are we just friends or are we more?
Let's make a decision or we'll wonder forever and evermore.
Chicka Chicka Boom Boom
More from the JLB/SDJ Project. We came up with the concept of this song from a book we read in elementary called "Chicka Chicka Boom Boom".
Chicka Chicka Boom Boom
Most girls hearts go pitter-patter when you are around.
But I want you to know, baby, that mine beats to a different sound.
Chicka Chicka Boom Boom baby Chicka Boom Boom
Chorus:
Chicka Chicka Boom Boom me and you.
Always and forever.
Chicka Chicka Boom Boom.
Can't you see we were meant to be together?
I thought that I was in control of myself, but how could I be so wrong.
Whenever I get you into sight my heart goes out of its mind.
Chicka Chicka Boom Boom baby Chicka Boom Boom.
Chorus:
Chicka Chicka Boom Boom me and you.
Always and forever.
Chicka Chicka Boom Boom.
Can't you see we were meant to be together?
I think I'm falling for you baby.
Can't you see it's true?
Whenever I get close to you, if you only knew.
Chicka Chicka Boom Boom baby Chicka Boom Boom.
Chorus:
Chicka Chicka Boom Boom me and you.
Always and forever.
Chicka Chicka Boom Boom.
Can't you see we were meant to be together?
Chicka Chicka Boom Boom
Most girls hearts go pitter-patter when you are around.
But I want you to know, baby, that mine beats to a different sound.
Chicka Chicka Boom Boom baby Chicka Boom Boom
Chorus:
Chicka Chicka Boom Boom me and you.
Always and forever.
Chicka Chicka Boom Boom.
Can't you see we were meant to be together?
I thought that I was in control of myself, but how could I be so wrong.
Whenever I get you into sight my heart goes out of its mind.
Chicka Chicka Boom Boom baby Chicka Boom Boom.
Chorus:
Chicka Chicka Boom Boom me and you.
Always and forever.
Chicka Chicka Boom Boom.
Can't you see we were meant to be together?
I think I'm falling for you baby.
Can't you see it's true?
Whenever I get close to you, if you only knew.
Chicka Chicka Boom Boom baby Chicka Boom Boom.
Chorus:
Chicka Chicka Boom Boom me and you.
Always and forever.
Chicka Chicka Boom Boom.
Can't you see we were meant to be together?
Only In My Dreams
This is part of the JLB/SDJ Project. I was brought on to assist in writing songs for my friend Jamie Lynn Bence along with Greg Gerard. We came out with three lovely songs. The next three songs are part of that collaborative process.
Only In My Dreams
Only in my dreams you love me.
That's the only time you care.
When I close my eyes I have no fear because in my dreams you are near.
Chorus:
Dreams aren't always what they seem.
But I still wish my dreams were real.
My friends say I'm crazy, but they don't even have a clue.
Nobody knows the way I feel in my dreams when you are real.
Chorus:
Dreams aren't always what they seem.
But I still wish my dreams were real.
Every night you wait for me.
Never will anyone be able to feel the way I feel.
Only to me you are real.
Chorus:
Dreams aren't always what they seem.
But I still wish my dreams were real.
I shut my eyes and go to sleep.
Because only in my dreams you're real.
Only In My Dreams
Only in my dreams you love me.
That's the only time you care.
When I close my eyes I have no fear because in my dreams you are near.
Chorus:
Dreams aren't always what they seem.
But I still wish my dreams were real.
My friends say I'm crazy, but they don't even have a clue.
Nobody knows the way I feel in my dreams when you are real.
Chorus:
Dreams aren't always what they seem.
But I still wish my dreams were real.
Every night you wait for me.
Never will anyone be able to feel the way I feel.
Only to me you are real.
Chorus:
Dreams aren't always what they seem.
But I still wish my dreams were real.
I shut my eyes and go to sleep.
Because only in my dreams you're real.
I Have to Leave...
Again I wasn't really that sad at the time of writing this. I was just listening to too much Garbage and Radiohead.
I Have to Leave...
I want to leave.
I want to leave you alone in this world before you leave me first.
I want to leave.
I want to leave you with no one to trust.
No one to care.
Chorus:
A world without you would be a cold lonely place.
Maybe if I leave you alone without a trace there would be no pain.
Nothing to gain.
I want to leave.
I want to leave you so I can be the strong one.
So I can have my place without your face.
Chorus:
A world without you would be a cold lonely place.
Maybe if I leave you alone without a trace there would be no pain.
Nothing to gain.
It's obvious you don't need me.
I'm just a burden that's here.
I have nothing left now.
I have everything to fear with you not being here.
Chorus:
A world without you would be a cold lonely place.
Maybe if I leave you alone without a trace there would be no pain.
Nothing to gain.
I have no one to turn to, but I must leave.
I cannot understand you.
I can barely breathe without you near.
I need you here.
I Have to Leave...
I want to leave.
I want to leave you alone in this world before you leave me first.
I want to leave.
I want to leave you with no one to trust.
No one to care.
Chorus:
A world without you would be a cold lonely place.
Maybe if I leave you alone without a trace there would be no pain.
Nothing to gain.
I want to leave.
I want to leave you so I can be the strong one.
So I can have my place without your face.
Chorus:
A world without you would be a cold lonely place.
Maybe if I leave you alone without a trace there would be no pain.
Nothing to gain.
It's obvious you don't need me.
I'm just a burden that's here.
I have nothing left now.
I have everything to fear with you not being here.
Chorus:
A world without you would be a cold lonely place.
Maybe if I leave you alone without a trace there would be no pain.
Nothing to gain.
I have no one to turn to, but I must leave.
I cannot understand you.
I can barely breathe without you near.
I need you here.
Always and Forever
Always and Forever
As I look into the long stretches of time, the only face I see is yours.
I wonder what will happen because you're never going to realize I like you.
Chorus:
I wonder what will be in the future when you won't remember me.
I'll still think of you.
Always and forever it's true.
Friends only for you, but you mean so much to me.
I guess that you can't see.
It's only just me.
Chorus:
I wonder what will be in the future when you won't remember me.
I'll still think of you.
Always and forever it's true.
Time slips by really fast.
Memories are in the past.
I want things to be true at last.
Chorus:
I wonder what will be in the future when you won't remember me.
I'll still think of you.
Always and forever it's true.
Always and forever.
Nothing ever lasts.
No matter if it's in the future or the past.
Chorus:
I wonder what will be in the future when you won't remember me.
I'll still think of you.
Always and forever it's true.
Always and forever it's true.
As I look into the long stretches of time, the only face I see is yours.
I wonder what will happen because you're never going to realize I like you.
Chorus:
I wonder what will be in the future when you won't remember me.
I'll still think of you.
Always and forever it's true.
Friends only for you, but you mean so much to me.
I guess that you can't see.
It's only just me.
Chorus:
I wonder what will be in the future when you won't remember me.
I'll still think of you.
Always and forever it's true.
Time slips by really fast.
Memories are in the past.
I want things to be true at last.
Chorus:
I wonder what will be in the future when you won't remember me.
I'll still think of you.
Always and forever it's true.
Always and forever.
Nothing ever lasts.
No matter if it's in the future or the past.
Chorus:
I wonder what will be in the future when you won't remember me.
I'll still think of you.
Always and forever it's true.
Always and forever it's true.
Someone I'll Love
Continuing on with embarrassing songs from 8th grade.
Someone I'll Love
It's the beginning of the year now.
I don't know know how I feel, yea.
I'd like to know where we stand.
Or are we just friends?
Chorus:
Because I'd like to start over from the very beginning.
I can't handle the emptiness.
A hysteria of loneliness.
Can't help but dream of someone I'll love.
I'm so confused now beyond my wildest dreams.
I guess I'm just crazy.
I must be going out of my mind.
Chorus:
Because I'd like to start over from the very beginning.
I can't handle the emptiness.
A hysteria of loneliness.
Can't help but dream of someone I'll love.
I still don't understand why I feel this way.
From the moment I saw you my life had changed.
I bet you never knew that I felt this way.
Chorus:
Because I'd like to start over from the very beginning.
I can't handle the emptiness.
A hysteria of loneliness.
Can't help but dream of someone I'll love.
Could you be that someone I'll love.
Someone I'll Love
It's the beginning of the year now.
I don't know know how I feel, yea.
I'd like to know where we stand.
Or are we just friends?
Chorus:
Because I'd like to start over from the very beginning.
I can't handle the emptiness.
A hysteria of loneliness.
Can't help but dream of someone I'll love.
I'm so confused now beyond my wildest dreams.
I guess I'm just crazy.
I must be going out of my mind.
Chorus:
Because I'd like to start over from the very beginning.
I can't handle the emptiness.
A hysteria of loneliness.
Can't help but dream of someone I'll love.
I still don't understand why I feel this way.
From the moment I saw you my life had changed.
I bet you never knew that I felt this way.
Chorus:
Because I'd like to start over from the very beginning.
I can't handle the emptiness.
A hysteria of loneliness.
Can't help but dream of someone I'll love.
Could you be that someone I'll love.
I've Got to Get Over You
This song pretty much continues the trend of awfulness.
I've Got to Get Over You
I wake up in the morning at 5:50 am.
Next thing I know I'm walking down the halls.
Then I see you.
I glance one, I glance twice.
I don't know what to do .
I've got to get over you.
Chorus:
Lord knows some things weren't meant to be true.
I've got to get over you.
Friends whisper.
Word gets around.
Everyone knows and I'm feeling down.
I've got to get over you.
Chorus:
Lord knows some things weren't meant to be true.
I've got to get over you.
Backstabbing lies or is it truth?
My world collapses with a note.
This cannot be true.
I've got to get over you.
Chorus:
Lord knows some things weren't meant to be true.
I've got to get over you.
I wake up in the morning and I'm feeling blue.
That never happened before I met you.
I've Got to Get Over You
I wake up in the morning at 5:50 am.
Next thing I know I'm walking down the halls.
Then I see you.
I glance one, I glance twice.
I don't know what to do .
I've got to get over you.
Chorus:
Lord knows some things weren't meant to be true.
I've got to get over you.
Friends whisper.
Word gets around.
Everyone knows and I'm feeling down.
I've got to get over you.
Chorus:
Lord knows some things weren't meant to be true.
I've got to get over you.
Backstabbing lies or is it truth?
My world collapses with a note.
This cannot be true.
I've got to get over you.
Chorus:
Lord knows some things weren't meant to be true.
I've got to get over you.
I wake up in the morning and I'm feeling blue.
That never happened before I met you.
Locked In, Locked Out
The lyrics I wrote in 8th grade were interesting to say the least. I was inspired to write this song after attending an 8th grade lock-in. I don't know what is going on with the third verse. I seemed to have changed the entire topic of the song.
Locked In, Locked Out
Now how many times have I told you.
Lately it seems as if you don't care about me.
I want to get to you.
Chorus:
Because you're locked in and I'm locked out.
I want to bring you into a world you never knew.
What am I going to do about you.
Butterflies fly high against the sky.
Looking for a destiny that's right.
Have you truly comprehended how green the grass is and how the sky is blue?
Chorus:
Because you're locked in and I'm locked out.
I want to bring you into a world you never knew.
What am I going to do about you.
A world with peace and happiness.
A world with no fear.
A world where children sing gracefully to the skies.
A world where no one cries.
Chorus:
Because you're locked in and I'm locked out.
I want to bring you into a world you never knew.
What am I going to do about you.
What am I going to do about you.
Locked In, Locked Out
Now how many times have I told you.
Lately it seems as if you don't care about me.
I want to get to you.
Chorus:
Because you're locked in and I'm locked out.
I want to bring you into a world you never knew.
What am I going to do about you.
Butterflies fly high against the sky.
Looking for a destiny that's right.
Have you truly comprehended how green the grass is and how the sky is blue?
Chorus:
Because you're locked in and I'm locked out.
I want to bring you into a world you never knew.
What am I going to do about you.
A world with peace and happiness.
A world with no fear.
A world where children sing gracefully to the skies.
A world where no one cries.
Chorus:
Because you're locked in and I'm locked out.
I want to bring you into a world you never knew.
What am I going to do about you.
What am I going to do about you.
Hello is Just as Hard as Goodbye
The last of the 8th grade poetry...
Hello is Just as Hard as Goodbye
Just like having a beginning, every thing must have an end. Hello can be just as hard as goodbye. Goodbye, probably the most dreaded word in the human language. So much emotion, memories, and feelings can be put into a simple goodbye. Just thinking about goodbye makes my eyes swell up with tears. Especially when it is goodbye for good, but nothing is ever really permanent. That is where hello comes in. Hello replaces the sorrow that is in goodbye. So hello is my cover-up, my mask. To know there will always be hello. I will not say goodbye because we will say hello again.
Hello is Just as Hard as Goodbye
Just like having a beginning, every thing must have an end. Hello can be just as hard as goodbye. Goodbye, probably the most dreaded word in the human language. So much emotion, memories, and feelings can be put into a simple goodbye. Just thinking about goodbye makes my eyes swell up with tears. Especially when it is goodbye for good, but nothing is ever really permanent. That is where hello comes in. Hello replaces the sorrow that is in goodbye. So hello is my cover-up, my mask. To know there will always be hello. I will not say goodbye because we will say hello again.
A Page Without Writing
A Page Without Writing
People walk out of my life too fast. I need them to be there for me, and they leave. They just leave me. I do hide my feelings, that I can't help. What is my life without them? A page without writing, or a beach that no human foot has ever touched. But still, a page has a book and the beach has the ocean. I have no one! I'm lost, for who will I turn to when you're gone? I am in the dark, and there won't be light for awhile. Then how will I see? I won't, I will be forced to stumble upon a path I am unsure of! My life is being turned upside down. People don't understand me, they never will. My life of eternal sadness is apparent to me.
People walk out of my life too fast. I need them to be there for me, and they leave. They just leave me. I do hide my feelings, that I can't help. What is my life without them? A page without writing, or a beach that no human foot has ever touched. But still, a page has a book and the beach has the ocean. I have no one! I'm lost, for who will I turn to when you're gone? I am in the dark, and there won't be light for awhile. Then how will I see? I won't, I will be forced to stumble upon a path I am unsure of! My life is being turned upside down. People don't understand me, they never will. My life of eternal sadness is apparent to me.
No Matter What Happens
No Matter What Happens
No matter what happens I will always remember you. A promise almost always broken. But how could I forget you? The fights and feuds were many, but there were good times too. We said friends forever, but forever you were unsure. I saw your confusion. I saw your anger. I would never hurt you! But trust was fragile. Now I'm left without you in this cruel world. I am your enemy that you try to ignore. How can you forget so soon? Just erase it from your mind. No matter what happens, no matter what I do! We are friends to me, but not for you.
No matter what happens I will always remember you. A promise almost always broken. But how could I forget you? The fights and feuds were many, but there were good times too. We said friends forever, but forever you were unsure. I saw your confusion. I saw your anger. I would never hurt you! But trust was fragile. Now I'm left without you in this cruel world. I am your enemy that you try to ignore. How can you forget so soon? Just erase it from your mind. No matter what happens, no matter what I do! We are friends to me, but not for you.
Not Goodbye
8th grade poetry...
Not Goodbye
Goodbye is never goodbye forever. It is more of a see you later. If I have my way fate will make sure I see you in the future. Until then I must say goodbye to you my friend.
Not Goodbye
Goodbye is never goodbye forever. It is more of a see you later. If I have my way fate will make sure I see you in the future. Until then I must say goodbye to you my friend.
There Are No More Tears
I wasn't really as miserable as these poems make me sound. I was being a bit over-dramatic. 8th grade poetry...
There Are No More Tears
People have made it very clear that no one wants to be my friend. No one wants me here. There are no more smiles upon my face, and no more tears to cry. For these tears in which I long for, have dried up in my eyes. Did I try to hard? Or did I not try at all? I can not answer that question myself. That is the one great downfall. Is this the end of civilization as we know it?Or just one more lousy day? I can not wait for the dawn break of one more . So I can leave my weary self behind in yesterday. So good bye day in hopes you will never return. I hate thee with a passion that will forever burn. Can someone just be my friend and not judge me. For to say good bye is just an addition to my own misery.
There Are No More Tears
People have made it very clear that no one wants to be my friend. No one wants me here. There are no more smiles upon my face, and no more tears to cry. For these tears in which I long for, have dried up in my eyes. Did I try to hard? Or did I not try at all? I can not answer that question myself. That is the one great downfall. Is this the end of civilization as we know it?Or just one more lousy day? I can not wait for the dawn break of one more . So I can leave my weary self behind in yesterday. So good bye day in hopes you will never return. I hate thee with a passion that will forever burn. Can someone just be my friend and not judge me. For to say good bye is just an addition to my own misery.
What's the Matter with You People?
More 8th grade poetry...
What's the Matter with You People?
Take a look in the mirror. Do you like what you see? Apparently you don't. Because you still make fun of me. See but that's OK. Your jealousy makes me strong. It gives me the power to live life and carry on.
What's the Matter with You People?
Take a look in the mirror. Do you like what you see? Apparently you don't. Because you still make fun of me. See but that's OK. Your jealousy makes me strong. It gives me the power to live life and carry on.
Who Can Help Me?
I wrote most of the next few poems for middle school forensics. This is all 8th grade stuff.
Who Can Help Me?
I'm suffering in my own presence. I'm drowning in my words. I fear everything.What happened to me? I need to be at peace with myself. I don't know what is wrong. Something in me snapped. I don't know what to do. Everything is really confusing. I don't know how it got to this point. I am completely emotionless. I don't feel. I just stare off into nothingness. I have nothing to say. I can't sleep at night. Nothing has meaning anymore. I can't even cry. I'm not the person I used to be. I want to go back,but there is something standing in my way. I don't have to hide anymore, but I do. It is like something is surrounding me. It is blocking out everything. So now I am left in something that doesn't make sense. The only thing I do feel is pain and anguish. How can I make this stop? Who can help me?
Who Can Help Me?
I'm suffering in my own presence. I'm drowning in my words. I fear everything.What happened to me? I need to be at peace with myself. I don't know what is wrong. Something in me snapped. I don't know what to do. Everything is really confusing. I don't know how it got to this point. I am completely emotionless. I don't feel. I just stare off into nothingness. I have nothing to say. I can't sleep at night. Nothing has meaning anymore. I can't even cry. I'm not the person I used to be. I want to go back,but there is something standing in my way. I don't have to hide anymore, but I do. It is like something is surrounding me. It is blocking out everything. So now I am left in something that doesn't make sense. The only thing I do feel is pain and anguish. How can I make this stop? Who can help me?
This One is For You
I apparently get mad when people assume certain songs are about them. This is another one from 7th grade.
This One is For You
I thought that you were kind, but I think I've changed my mind.
You we're perfect in my mind.
Chorus:
Oh and this one really is about you.
No doubt about it.
I could scream and shout it, oh and shout it.
This one's for you.
I thought that you were the one for me.
My plans changed really quickly.
You're not my prince charming.
Not anymore.
Chorus:
Oh and this one really is about you.
No doubt about it.
I could scream and shout it, oh and shout it.
This one's for you.
Cinderella story.
Fairy tale.
Kiss a frog turn into a prince.
You be the frog and I don't even want to think about what you'd turn into.
Chorus:
Oh and this one really is about you.
No doubt about it.
I could scream and shout it, oh and shout it.
This one's for you.
I wonder what could have been, but I can't stay in the past.
I must go on.
Now tell me, aren't you happy that there finally is a song about you?
This One is For You
I thought that you were kind, but I think I've changed my mind.
You we're perfect in my mind.
Chorus:
Oh and this one really is about you.
No doubt about it.
I could scream and shout it, oh and shout it.
This one's for you.
I thought that you were the one for me.
My plans changed really quickly.
You're not my prince charming.
Not anymore.
Chorus:
Oh and this one really is about you.
No doubt about it.
I could scream and shout it, oh and shout it.
This one's for you.
Cinderella story.
Fairy tale.
Kiss a frog turn into a prince.
You be the frog and I don't even want to think about what you'd turn into.
Chorus:
Oh and this one really is about you.
No doubt about it.
I could scream and shout it, oh and shout it.
This one's for you.
I wonder what could have been, but I can't stay in the past.
I must go on.
Now tell me, aren't you happy that there finally is a song about you?
I Can't Live Without Your Love
I really wish I could explain this song. I was listening to a little too much Diana Ross when I wrote this. Another one from 7th grade...
I Can't Live Without Your Love
Walking around.
Thinking about you.
I wish you loved me the way I love you.
Chorus:
I can't live without your love for one more day.
Oh, no, no.
I'll waste away without you.
My friends say I'm wrong.
Well I can prove them wrong.
Yes I can.
Just go ahead and watch me.
Chorus:
I can't live without your love for one more day.
Oh, no, no.
I'll waste away without you.
Well I guess I really don't care.
I'll still walk along singing my song for a while.
That's what I'll do.
I'm waiting for you.
Chorus:
I can't live without your love for one more day.
Oh, no, no.
I'll waste away without you.
I Can't Live Without Your Love
Walking around.
Thinking about you.
I wish you loved me the way I love you.
Chorus:
I can't live without your love for one more day.
Oh, no, no.
I'll waste away without you.
My friends say I'm wrong.
Well I can prove them wrong.
Yes I can.
Just go ahead and watch me.
Chorus:
I can't live without your love for one more day.
Oh, no, no.
I'll waste away without you.
Well I guess I really don't care.
I'll still walk along singing my song for a while.
That's what I'll do.
I'm waiting for you.
Chorus:
I can't live without your love for one more day.
Oh, no, no.
I'll waste away without you.
Daydreaming
Lyrics from 7th grade. That's not a typo, I really did end the song with just the word "daydreaming".
Daydreaming
I'm never going to win you.
Your not mine to have.
But who says dreams aren't real.
Because I'm with you in my mind.
Chorus:
Daydreaming about you and me.
It's never going to happen that's sad to say.
But I wish you knew how I feel about you.
The skies are blue then I see you.
Maybe we're just not meant to be.
But in my dreams it's real.
Chorus:
Daydreaming about you and me.
It's never going to happen that's sad to say.
But I wish you knew how I feel about you.
Daydreaming.
Fantasizing.
It's hypnotizing.
It's not going to work out for me and you.
Chorus:
Daydreaming about you and me.
It's never going to happen that's sad to say.
But I wish you knew how I feel about you.
Daydreaming.
Daydreaming
I'm never going to win you.
Your not mine to have.
But who says dreams aren't real.
Because I'm with you in my mind.
Chorus:
Daydreaming about you and me.
It's never going to happen that's sad to say.
But I wish you knew how I feel about you.
The skies are blue then I see you.
Maybe we're just not meant to be.
But in my dreams it's real.
Chorus:
Daydreaming about you and me.
It's never going to happen that's sad to say.
But I wish you knew how I feel about you.
Daydreaming.
Fantasizing.
It's hypnotizing.
It's not going to work out for me and you.
Chorus:
Daydreaming about you and me.
It's never going to happen that's sad to say.
But I wish you knew how I feel about you.
Daydreaming.
Goodbye to Thee
Another 7th grade poem. Apparently I was a very emotional child.
Goodbye to Thee
My whole life has been completely entwined with you. That's the way we had planned, but now I am forced to leave you. I will walk down unfamiliar halls with unfamiliar faces, but that won't bother me. It is the thought of not turning around and seeing you. Your face, your smile. It's all gone. Maybe we'll call each other once or twice, but that won't last. My dreams are shattered. I am like a lost little child with no one in the world to protect it from the harsh reality of this cruel world. The memories of sleep-overs and parties are everlasting. Especially when we got into trouble. We always stood up for each other. Now I must push away the hurt and go on in this world in hopes I will find someone like you. Obviously I won't because you are one of a kind. You always have been unique. So in hopes that you will never forget me, I will say goodbye to thee.
Goodbye to Thee
My whole life has been completely entwined with you. That's the way we had planned, but now I am forced to leave you. I will walk down unfamiliar halls with unfamiliar faces, but that won't bother me. It is the thought of not turning around and seeing you. Your face, your smile. It's all gone. Maybe we'll call each other once or twice, but that won't last. My dreams are shattered. I am like a lost little child with no one in the world to protect it from the harsh reality of this cruel world. The memories of sleep-overs and parties are everlasting. Especially when we got into trouble. We always stood up for each other. Now I must push away the hurt and go on in this world in hopes I will find someone like you. Obviously I won't because you are one of a kind. You always have been unique. So in hopes that you will never forget me, I will say goodbye to thee.
Advent
A lovely poem about Advent. This was co-written by Bryn Williams in 7th grade.
Advent
Advent is my favorite season.
If you ask I'll give you a reason.
Because of Jesus Christ our king.
In our minds he'll always ring.
A wreath of hope that has no end.
You try to be a light to your friend.
Four candles burning as bright as can be.
A season of light, peace, and generosity.
Advent
Advent is my favorite season.
If you ask I'll give you a reason.
Because of Jesus Christ our king.
In our minds he'll always ring.
A wreath of hope that has no end.
You try to be a light to your friend.
Four candles burning as bright as can be.
A season of light, peace, and generosity.
Sixteen Roses
This is one of the first songs I ever wrote. I wrote something when I was five, but never finished it. Believe me, it wasn't great. This is the first complete set of lyrics that I have. I was also eight when I wrote this. I don't know why at eight I was writing about being sixteen. I always envisioned this as a country song.
Sixteen Roses
Sitting alone in my room.
With nothing else to do.
Parents gone for two week.
I hope they didn't forget me.
Sitting in my room crying myself to sleep.
Chorus:
Sixteen roses sitting on my chair.
Hoping someone would remember me.
Hoping someone would care.
It's no fun turning sixteen when no one is there.
Where's my party?
Where's my friends?
Where's my cake?
Where's my band?
I'm sitting in my room crying myself to sleep.
Chorus:
Sixteen roses sitting on my chair.
Hoping someone would remember me.
Hoping someone would care.
It's no fun turning sixteen when no one is there.
Candles burning bright.
Time is running out.
Hoping someone would hear me.
Hoping my dreams will be.
Chorus:
Sixteen roses sitting on my chair.
Hoping someone would remember me.
Hoping someone would care.
It's not fun turning sixteen when no one is there.
It's no fun turning sixteen when no one even cares.
No one even cares.
No it's no fun turning sweet sixteen when no one is there.
It's no fun turning sixteen when no one is there.
Sixteen Roses
Sitting alone in my room.
With nothing else to do.
Parents gone for two week.
I hope they didn't forget me.
Sitting in my room crying myself to sleep.
Chorus:
Sixteen roses sitting on my chair.
Hoping someone would remember me.
Hoping someone would care.
It's no fun turning sixteen when no one is there.
Where's my party?
Where's my friends?
Where's my cake?
Where's my band?
I'm sitting in my room crying myself to sleep.
Chorus:
Sixteen roses sitting on my chair.
Hoping someone would remember me.
Hoping someone would care.
It's no fun turning sixteen when no one is there.
Candles burning bright.
Time is running out.
Hoping someone would hear me.
Hoping my dreams will be.
Chorus:
Sixteen roses sitting on my chair.
Hoping someone would remember me.
Hoping someone would care.
It's not fun turning sixteen when no one is there.
It's no fun turning sixteen when no one even cares.
No one even cares.
No it's no fun turning sweet sixteen when no one is there.
It's no fun turning sixteen when no one is there.
The Lord's Lamb
I said I was posting early stuff. I was eight and in 5th grade when I wrote this...
The Lord's Lamb
You shall never walk in darkness upon God's golden path so bright.
God is your shepherd and you are his lamb.
So look to him when the light is dim.
For he will watch out for you through thick and thin.
The Lord's Lamb
You shall never walk in darkness upon God's golden path so bright.
God is your shepherd and you are his lamb.
So look to him when the light is dim.
For he will watch out for you through thick and thin.
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